All these years (Camren)

Chapter One - Friends don't kiss their friends (Part 3)

A/N: So I kind of forgot to include the last part so here's a short chapter but therefore I uploaded the next chapter too.
Hope you like it :)
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Seeing Lauren walking out the door broke every last bit of her heart that was left. This was a goodbye and Lauren had no idea.
Camila won't let her back in her life. She's ready to move on now. She's asking herself what her younger self would think about her right now. Would she be mad at her for letting her go or would she be proud for moving on from something that hurt her more than anything else?
When Camila closed the door she put her head against it and cried. She wanted to do that all night. She wasn't in the mood to talk to Shawn but she knew she had to because she promised it.
She dialed his number still crying but she didn't care.

"Hey, that was absolutely beautiful. I'm so proud of you, Camila", Shawn said answering the phone.

"Thank you, Shawn you have no idea how much I appreciate you in my life", she said with a shaky voice.

"You talked to her, didn't you?", He asked knowing the answer already.

Camila didn't answer, she didn't want to talk about Lauren right now.
"We should do this PR thing. Especially after that performance. Camrenshippers will go wild after today", she said surprising herself.

"I- yes let's do it", Shawn answered, almost too quickly.

"Alright. I'll talk to Roger tomorrow so we can go trough the details.", she said being disgusted by the fact that she would fake a relationship just so she could move on from Lauren.

"Okay, so nice!", Shawn was happy.

"Got to go now but I see you soon", Camila said wanting to end the conversation as fast as she could.

"Okay, love you bye", Shawn answered and Camila hung up knowing that she will break his heart but right now she didn't care at all.

She had to get over the love of her life and she had no clue how to do that. They're not friends, they never were. It pains her knowing that she will never come home to Lauren and their children. She will never wake up beside her and they won't get old together. After all these years Camila finally accepted that her and Lauren wouldn't work.
Today her heart broke even more. It was painful because Lauren was out. She accepted the fact that she likes girls, she's in a relationship with a girl and not once she tried it with her.
Waiting for Lauren's love was like reaching for the stars, it felt possible but it never was.
She had to admit that she fell in love alone and unrequited love sucks the most.

This feeling was new to her. No matter how bad Lauren had hurt her, she never not wanted to see her but right now she never wanted to see her again. She was exhausted and sad.
She agreed to fake date Shawn, something she wouldn't do.
Camila felt lost like never before. There she was, heartbroken by her past that no matter how hard she tried always managed to find a way back to her.

She wouldn't see Lauren again, she didn't even had her number so it was almost impossible. It's better that way. It's over for good and Camila had a hard time accepting it but deep down she knew that she had no other choice.
Lauren Jauregui had to become a stranger so she could move on with her life.

She would for sure write a few songs about her, a million probably but that was her way of coping. Those green eyes will always haunt her but they didn't feel like home anymore.
Being loved by Lauren. What kind of feeling was that? Knowing when she looks at you that you're the one she needs. She had kissed her lips, laid in her arms but never did she feel loved. She had so much love to give and nothing to take, it felt awful and lonely. A part of her wanted to scream in Lauren's face and tell her that she still had this undying love for her but the other part knew better than calling Lauren hers.

A/N: I'm sorry that this is such a short chapter but I hope you liked it anyway.