Eunoia

Agape ( Changlix )

Red .

He scribbles with red crayons.

He tightens his grip before he furiously runs it over the paper tearing it .

" No .... no .... no my crayon ..... my crayon "

" Here ! " the husky voice interrupts placing a blue crayon infront of him .

" Blue ! " he claps .

" How do you feel ? "

" Me ? "

" Yes Felix "

" empty "

" Do you know why "

" because my red crayon is broke "

" do you want more red crayons "

" I want! I want but they call me crazy , they say I'm dangerous,  why ? Why ? "

" Felix ? "

" Yes hyungie " he replies distracted by his blue crayon.

" Please use the crayons I give you "

" Will you give me red ? "

" I will but promise not to find crayons on your own , they'll hurt you "

Felix nods scrubbing the blue crayon on the white wall as Changbin slowly takes the bloody knife away wrapping up Felix's wounds .

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A white pill in his mouth.

" swallow it " she says in a frustrating tone . He hates it , he hates people who are not nice to him so he refuses shaking his head .

" swallow it " she repeats pulling hair .

" What the fuck are you doing! " the husky voice saves him again .

Her hands are replaced by big warm ones that message his scalp where she hurt him .

" I hate - hate it hyungie hate it so much " he whispers .

" I'm sorry , I'll protect you "

" I'll protect you " it rings in his ears except its not this husky voice , it's the voice he hates the most .

" I'll protect you " he keeps hearing it over and over again.

A manic smile appears across the tall Grey haired man and he slips his hand in Felix's pants.  He screams loudly and he kicks him away .

His rage taking over him he punches his face .

" You - I hate you - I hate you ! Go away ! "

" Felix ! Felix please its me " the husky voice brings him back and his hands tremble as he sees the bruise on his eyes .

" Who ? Me ! Me ! I hurt - I hurt hyungie"

" Felix listen- listen to my voice , focus "

Felix curls up in the corner covering his ears . He can't hear him say he hates him . He doesn't want to be hated .

The gentle hands pull him close slowly allowing him to uncover his ears .

" Lixie , lixie is sorry,  lixie wanted him to go away "

" He's gone , I'll never let him close . Here when you swallow this pill it'll help you I promise "

" Hyungie I've been bad "

" You didn't mean to , you wouldn't hurt your hyung knowingly would you ? "

" No - No never I'm sorry "