ℍ𝕒𝕚𝕜𝕪𝕦𝕦! 𝕆𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕥 𝔽𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤

tsukkiyama

A Tsukkishima x Yamaguchi Angst Fanfiction

TW: Death, mentions of injury

"It's been a year, starlight." Tsukkishima said, looking down briefly at the stone that read Yamaguchi's name. It hurt his heart just to see... he could barely handle it, but he had still came to Tadashi's grave every single day since the accident. It was a tragic scene—a year ago that same day, both Tsukkishima and Yamaguchi had been driving to work, the shorter of the two having been behind the wheel. It wasn't Tadashi's fault... he couldn't have prevented the maniac driver hitting them, and everyday Tsukkishima blamed the universe, and blamed whatever unspoken god that was out there for taking away his husband. For taking away his hope. For taking away his only sanity.

He could still see it fresh in his mind. Yamaguchi's body, cold and immobile, laying beside him in the flipped over car. The sirens were loud and blaring—and Yamaguchi was pronounced dead at the scene. That's all that it took. Fuck. Ever since then, ever since that horrible, horrible day... Kei had never been the same. Of course the universe had to take the only thing that made him happy. He couldn't have anything.
And now, a year later, Tsukkishima kneeled at his deceased husbands grave, shakily placing the bouquet of flowers he bought down in front of the large stone. "A year since.." Tears welled in Kei's eyes, much like they did every time he visited, and he couldn't help when they started rolling down his pale cheeks. "I've seen y-your wonderful s-smile..."

"A year since..." He kept going, he didn't know why, he was probably just talking to himself—but for some reason, he felt in his heart that Yamaguchi was listening. And that's all he needed. "I-I.. heard your—" Tsukkishima took a deep breath, reaching his trembling hand up to wipe away his tears, though more kept rushing down. "Since I heard your v-voice.. your beautiful voice... god—you don't understand how pretty it is." Kei's heart was sinking as he continued to speak, he felt empty, sad, alone, and just... nothing. Nobody understood this type of pain.

"It feels like i—t's been w-way longer than that..." Tsukkishima sobbed, pulling up his sweater sleeves so he could cry into them. "Everyday is so long and antagonizing without you, starlight... I just can't do it anymore, you—you have to come back.."

The pain was overbearing. The stake in his heart was wrenching, and he couldn't stand another long, hard, disgusting day without Yamaguchi. He couldn't do it—it was too much.