Shattered behind Pride

An Apology

(Again, random song)

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Time zone switch cause I feel like writing in Present now-

Draco's POV

Out of ALL people to run into, it has to be him. I was hoping I could avoid him, looks like that won't  be possibles anymore. Ugh.

 After seeing him there with his friends I was sure the Weasley saw me. And I don't even want to know what they would be suspecting if I just walked off. So my only opportunity left was to once again pretend to be that selfish, blond bitch everyone expects me to be.

I hate it. I really do. Merlin, what would I give to be myself for a day. Even if just a day. Just to feel like I could be...free. 

But of course with Father around...

No. I can't  think about that now. I can't afford a mental breakdown in front of random kids, especially in front of the Golden Trio.

I walk into the train with Pansy and Blaise when suddenly a short childish looking little girl comes up to us. She has bright, big blue eyes and light brown, straight hair. Her face is sprinkled with Freckles.

"Hi!" She exclaims.

"What do you need" Pansy replies.

The girl frowns a bit, but then says;

"My name is Ziva Karotuka, and I'm supposed to collect Sir Zabini and Ma'am Parkison."

Blaise looks at me, then follows the girl down the corridor.

"Well, see you later Dray..."

 Pansy mumbles, also looking at me. She smiles, then follows the two down the hall.

I stare after them for a while. I'm shaken out of my thoughts by the train starting to move. I turn around and start looking for an empty compartment. The train is built similar to the Hogwarts Express, which doesn't  really help me find my way around.

I soon come to the conclusion that literally all the compartments are full and there is no way I am going to join some random kids, muggles. Fuck no. 

Finally I see a compartment which seems to be empty. As I walk over to it, I'm surprised by the one face I was hoping not to see again. 

"Malfoy?" Pottah sounds surprised to see me.

"All the other compartments are full otherwise, trust me, I wouldn't be here." I immediately regret what I said and wanted to mentally kick myself.

"Whatever, come in..." Scarhead replies.

I shift inside and throw my bag under the seat, that I then sit on. Pottah was staring out of the window, not paying the slightest attention to me. It should staye like that. Maybe then I won't feel so awkward. But of course he can't keep his mouth shut. It's actually kind of cute that he never stops talking unless something really bad happened.

Ugh. No Draco. Stop thinking like that. Your supposed to loose the feelings for him, not  make them deeper.

"Where are Parkison and Zabini?" He asks me.

I am reluctant to reply, but remember what the Book worm said earlier. Just try to get along with him without catching more feelings...

"They got kidnapped by some short kid with blue eyes and freckles." I reply.

"What about Weasley and Granger?"

"Same thing here." He mumbles silence rests upon the conversation and he resumes looking out if the window. I play around with the buttons on my shirt. I then look up at him.

He bites his lip, nervously. He then takes  a deep breath and says something I can't  believe;

"Hey...I'm sorry for not accepting your friend request back in first year."

I look at him as if I was stunned. 'H-he apologised' I thought. I manage to finally say something.

"I-it's fine" I mumble. I could feel the blush creeping onto my cheeks. I press it back down. I can't afford falling even more in love with him. Deep down I know I already am, and there's no way to turn back but...maybe I can get over him...right?

Suddenly I'm hit with a wave of extreme pain. The pain numbs everything around me. 

"I-Im going to the restroom" I manage and run out of the compartment.

Harry's POV

'What was that about? I apologise to him and he runs...weird. Maybe he just wasn't feeling well.' 

I grab my bag from under the chair and take something out of the first pocket. I can't help smiling. The images of my father, my mother, Sirius and Remus smile back up at me. I fold the picture in my pocket and lay down on the empty bench. If no one was here anyway, I was gonna take a nap.

Draco's POV

Thank Merlin it doesn't take me long to find the bathroom. I lock the door and try breathing slowly and steady, like Pansy told me. After the pain subsides a bit I slump to the ground.

I slowly pull my sleeves up to reveal the reason I was in pain. 

"They're bleeding again..." I whisper. I make myself  a mental note to thank Pansy later, who was the one who suggested to keep extra bandages in my pockets just in case. She was the only one who knew...about basically everything....

I take care of the cuts and throw the bloody bandages away. I take a deep breath. I wish I could just stay in here for the rest of the trip, but I know that won't work. I get up  and pull my sleeves back down. I then un-lock the door and head back to the compartment.

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Dun dun DUNNNNNNN we love angst don't we 😏

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