Mastermind Seiko Kimura

Nowhere To Go

Seiko's POV

'What the hell am I supposed to do now?'

I sat on a bench outside of Hope's Peak with all I had left; my bag with my most important pills and chemicals. The same bag that was switched out for a detonator... This entire situation occurred because I just wanted to help: Ruruka, Sonosuke, Komaeda. I couldn't even do that much. I should have just shut the hell up and gotten each of them their own drug myself.

I was minding my own business, it was just a normal day...

'That sounds familiar...'

I was working on my presentation for the upcoming test, starting with just a few trial-and-errors to see which method worked better. Komaeda bursted in the room and practically appeared next to me. He scared the shit out of me and messed up my slight progress. He told me TeruTeru, who happened to be in his class, 'referred' him to me to help him with a problem prior to appearing.

He basically just needed strong laxatives, so I told him exactly where they were: "Very back of the storage room. Top shelf, far right." I explained the best I could at the time considering Ruruka and Sonosuke were yelling at me through the door. The door was unlocked. They only wanted to use me again anyway...

There was no hesitation, there never was. They sat themselves down and Ruruka started explaining why she needed to use my project to enhance hers. She wouldn't have ever gotten into Hope's Peak if it wasn't for me... I mean, I'm the one who made her sweets so good. If it wasn't for my performance enhancers, she would be a Reserve Course Student.

Even in that moment they tried to get me to eat their sweets... Of course I agreed to let them take my reanimator - the project I was working on for my own performance - once they did that... How could I not? After they accused me of being a bad friend because of it - yet again - Komaeda was just coming out of the storage closet. I guess Sonosuke took seeing someone else in my lab unannounced as a threat. I couldn't completely blame him, though. No one aside from them ever really came to 'visit' me.

All while Sonosuke had a knife pressed against Komaeda's neck, he didn't seem phased in the slightest. It was slightly unsettling, but I had bigger problems to worry about. I had to stay up all night making a brand new project and I had no ideas...

I'm not blaming them for what happened, I just knew I should have done something... I could have explained what the bottles looked like better or checked to make sure they both grabbed the right ones. What good will beating myself up over it do now? I'm homeless...

And to think, the last time I had somewhere to sleep I barely did. I came home less than an hour before I had to get up and passed out uncomfortably because I spent the whole night making a new performance worthy drug. I slept through my alarm anyway and that's why I bumped into Komaeda on my way to the gymnasium.

I just wanted to support Ruruka and be there for them... At the time, the fact that they made me late and was using me without remorse didn't bother me at all.

I just wanted to be there for them...

I just wanted a friend...

Why didn't they ever want to be my friend?

What didn't I do right?

Komaeda even lied to me. I asked him how my reactivator worked for him and he said it worked great. Even he lied to me... I didn't even know him! There was no reason for that! After he lied, I finally made it to the gym. Ruruka was on stage presenting her project already. Sonosuke was sitting at the side of the stage, saving a seat for me. There were people all over and a group of people with a camera broadcasting everything live, I assumed it was the local news station.