Poetry I think?

VOID

I feel my emotion slipping away
Paralyse, all on my own.
I'm only trying to do what is best, but you push me away
And i feel my face tearing apart.

Repetitive
You're all repetitive.
You pretend to care, you demand so much
But you never listen
You're always inconsistent.
It's killing me, i feel apathy.

So tired, so tired, so tired,
You took away my emotion
You took away my life.
I'm dead because of your expectation
I've become a shell, just a shard of who I used to be.

I just feel like severing and forget all the pain
I don't want to remember, reminisce, all the happiness form before.

Do you realise how broken I am?
Are you tired of playing with me?
Will you throw me away?
After 5 years of love and devotion for you
just a bitter smile and a waving hand.

I feel myself lost in a hyperactive life, too fast.
I can't keep up that pace.
I'm falling behind everyone.

A life planned is boring but a life unknown is fearful.
They all know their path meanwhile
I'm still stying to find my purpose.
Lost in a void of nothingness, lost in though,
lost in mind, lost in life.

Can someone tell me what is there to be so exited about the future?
Is it really that interesting?
A life full of hardships and without happiness.

Or better yet, why do we even live?
Why do we have to go though the pain of just existing?
Is it really that worth it? Did God planned for this?
Did God planned for our own self inflicted agony?

I'm tired so tired,
Of feeling, of living.
You don't even comprehend the damage you have done to me
You think you're helping
you think it's for my own sake
You're deceiving yourself to avoid guilt.

You view me as numbers as letters and not as a person.
You hug me but in you're embrace
I only feel the cold rattle of chains.

You have poisoned me and now
I'm just a mindless being without form or soul.

I can scream as much as I want
but no one will come to save a broken puppet.