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Adore Delano: panic

T/W: panic attacks

    She's leaving.

    Why is she really leaving?

    Am I that annoying?

    Tour is probably just an excuse to get rid of me.

    I need to stop thinking like this.

    I'm not helping myself by thinking like this.

    I'm done with feeling like... like...

   "Why are my hands shaking." I whisper to myself.

   "no no no no NO No stop shaking." I freak out while the tear start to fall from my cheeks.

  I have panic attacks sometimes. But the problem is the first time I had one my hands started shaking and it has freaked me out even worse ever since. So when my hands start to shake it makes the panic attack worse then it would have been.

  The hyperventilating starts and I don't know what to do.

  "I... can't breathe. I... can't... breathe... adore."

   "Adore I need you."  I try to yell but my breathing isn't letting me be loud enough.

   "Adore!"

   Nothing.

   "ADORE!"

   She won't help you.

   "DANNY I NEED YOU!!" I finally yell loudly while my lap is being soaked in tears.

   "Sorry I was sleeping... y/n what's wrong?"

   "My stupid hands are shaking again." I say getting frustrated it won't stop.

   "It's ok babe you just need to calm down." Danny says walking over to me and holding my hands in theirs.

   "I... I can't...I-"

  "Just look at me. You're safe. I'm here with you you don't have anything to worry about."

  "I don't?"

  "No you don't cause I'm here."

   "Ok.. I'm ok.. I'm ok.." I say look at my hands and noticing they have stopped shaking.

   "Why are you crying y/nn?"

   "I keep thinking stupid things that freak me out."

   "Like what."

   "Like you're just going on tour to get away from me."

  "Why would you think that?"

  "I don't know." I frown looking down at my lap away from there eyes.

  "I love you so much ok, I'm on tour because that's my job not because I want to be away from you, if anything I was gonna ask if you wanted to come with cause some of the others are bringing people so.."

  "You want me to come with you?"

  "Yup, we can party together."

  "Ok." I say wiping my tears away.

  "YAYYY!!!" She yells jumping into my arms.

   "I love you."

    "Aww I love you to bby. And no more self doubt your a bad bitch." She laughs.

   "You're right, i am a bad bitch." I laugh with her.

(This has been in my drafts for four days because it is kinda cringe but I need to post something so if you have any request just leave them here)