Who am I? - A Niall Horan Fanfic

Chapter 3 - The Pill

Hello! sorry the chapters are all quite short at the moment, i'm just quite busy and i wanted to upload this tonight because i'm going on hoiday tomorrow! WOOP WOOP! But most impotantly TOMORROW IS LOUIS' BIRTHDAY! YAY! CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S TURNING 21 :O Anyways i hope you like the chapter, and i'm not sure when i'll update next so Merry early chrismas and New years :) x

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Chapter 3

I woke up to the loud ringing of my alarm. Ugh, I really should put a calmer song so I don't get a heart attack every morning, I thought to myself. Today was the sixth day; tomorrow my personality should be renewed. IL be new and improved.

Although, the more I thought about, the less I wanted to go through with it because all I kept thinking about was Hailey. I’ve been seeing her for 5 days now as friends but I think I may really like this girl, and if she feels the same way then that’ll be great. Apart from the fact that I’m becoming like Harry...and she liked me as Niall. 

Maybe I should stop taking the pills then? Maybe I should just be me. I thought about the few days we spent together and how much we connected. How she told me things she's never told anyone before like how she's been emotionally unstable for a while ever since she moved here. And how her dad abused her. She told me everything; she showed me everything - her pictures, her little brother.... Her cuts. She had many scars from all the time she had self harmed. I remember when I first spotted them and asked about them, she was so secretive and scared that I’ll judge her, but eventually she told me and I didn't. I tried to help her, I told her I always be there to help her. But I guess I can still do that with Harry’s personality right? RIGHT!?

I can't do this.

I can't.

I'm trying to help Hailey be comfortable with who she is, yet here I am changing who I am.

I got up and walked into the kitchen. I lurked towards the kitchen counter where the last blue pill lay waiting to be swallowed. It was still in the box Dr. Marz had given it to me in. I picked it up and slowly observed it, 

shook my head, 

and tossed it in the bin.

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That night I was supposed to take the pill, but I decided to forget it and go straight to bed. I’m Niall and always will be, I thought to myself. Before going to bed I decided to go onto twitter; same old tweets ‘FOLLOW ME NIALL I LOVE YOU’ I smiled at as I read through what the fans had sent me.

But then I came across some different tweets. ‘Why can’t Niall just leave one direction, HE CANT EVEN SING?’

It’s just one tweet Niall. It’s okay, they’re just haters. I thought to myself.

But it came again and again. There were loads of those type of tweets.

I can’t do this anymore, I CANT!

At that point I realised I had tears in my eyes. Before thinking I got up and threw my laptop onto my bed and got up, ‘I CAN’T SING HUH?’ I screamed allowed, 

‘WELL YOU KNOW WHO CAN SING? HARRY! HARRY CAN SING, HE CAN FUCKING SING!’ I stormed down the stairs quickly wiping away my tears; I barged into the kitchen, ‘IF HARRYS WHAT YOU WANT, HARRY IS WHAT YOU’LL GET!’ I screamed ruffling through the bin, throwing things all over the place in rage, eventually I found the pill and swallowed it.

I swallowed it.

I felt dizzy as it made its way through my blood into my organs.

‘YOU DONT LIKE NIALL?’ NEITHER DO I BECAUSE HE NO LONGER EXISTS!’ I screamed as I pounded my fists on the kitchen counter. My insides were burning, I screamed, I yelled I leaned on the counter and gripped on to the surface as my soul sizzled with pain. This must be it, I’m transforming.

I screamed and gripped the counter, eventually my body could no longer support me and i collapsed

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The next morning i woke up. Everything felt weird. I looked around and realized i was still lying on the kitchen floor. I tried to get up but everything hurt. Was i Harry on the inside now? Has my personality changed? 

Slowly i began to get up and eventually i made it on my feet. I shook my head, hm my head felt strange, as if it was heavier.

I slowly walked towards the bathroom, i walked in scratching my head and at that point i turned towards the mirror.

'AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!' I screamed so loud i'm sure the whole world heard. But i couldn't help it i was in shock.

The person i was staring at in the mirror was not me. 

'whats going on?!' I panicked, i ran my fingers through my hair 'THIS , THIS WASNT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!!'

I reached out to touch the mirror to make sure that really was my reflection.

What i was staring at was me, but it was me...

With Harry's hair.

I sprinted out of the bathroom and out of my house, i was still in my pajamas but i didnt care, i had to go see Dr. Marz. Dr. Marz was supposed to change my personality and my voice... NOT MY LOOKS. i had to be sneaky while getting to the lab, no one can see me like this! What will Harry and the boys think if they knew how insecure i am that i had to do all this? Shit shit shit shit shit Niall, what have you gotten yourself into!

Eventually i got to Dr. Marz's lab, i banged on the door until eventually he opened it. You could easily tell that i had woken him up, his white hair was all puffy, his eyes were red and he was wearing a very disturbing short night gown.

'What do you wa-' the doctor stopped speaking after his eyes met my hair.

'Dr. Marz, why do i have curly hair?'

woops the pills gone wrong! :O Will Dr. Marz findd a cure? hehe hope you liked it :)  PLEASE PLEASE vote and leave me a comment! i want to hear from you beautiful goblins :) 

Should i carry on with this fanfic?

- Mariam xox

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