Besties

Part 14

Suicidal thoughts ⚠️

After that you take a nap for 2 hours and go eat with duke I hate school same but can't relate that you have school hahaha very funny duke what do you wanna do today? Idk maybe just stay home? Everyday was almost the same tbh, one day you and duke are asking each other questions what is something about me that you wish you knew before you met me or before I like finally became a teenager umm that I had to give you more attention why because you are a very insecure person and your self esteem is very low and I wish I gave you more attention to prevent that is it noticeable ? Sometimes, you are very good at hiding it ok I just got exposed yes so everyone tell your friends you love them because you don't know what they are going through or how they feel well I wish I knew that you would be TikTok famous so I could buy you like the equipment mine is more true tho you have a point but idk how the attention would help maybe if I gave you a compliment everyday or made you feel confident you wouldn't be insecure now, what if you start a TikTok no I don't think I could and people need talented people something better see what I mean if maybe I gave you more attention you would start a TikTok, why don't you start one what is stopping you I'm not enough like the others so I wouldn't get anywhere you just said your not enough right? No? I don't think so did I ? Someone I know someone screen recorded this I know it tag me so I can show her, you did say your not enough why aren't you enough well idk who would want to follow me why someone unattractive your not unattractive why wdym why I think your perfectly fine well I don't idk when I look in the mirror I think that everyone who knows me deserves a better person than me but if you were gone- if I was gone no one would notice and no one would really care tbh what would I do with out you you would probably forget about me....idk? I wouldn't I would be so lonely he says holding one of your hands and maybe if I give you that attention right now I can help you and what about your fans I can't have all your attention they would help too maybe but I wouldn't want you to give me all your attention just because I'm insecure no one has noticed in the past 4-5 years I can go a little while longer plus I'll get over it soon I'm sure about that ok how about we get a therapist no no no never please no ok then let me help you no I really think this is all just normal and that I'll get over it soon no I really want to help you I really do and what about your fans they wouldn't want to loose attention from you they are more important than me but rn you need the attention why because you could have suicidal thoughts and that could lead to more how is being insecure lead to my suicidal thoughts ok your insecure about your body and almost everything right? Yes and you feel like your not enough and that you would be better off dead right? Yes so since you hate everything about yourself your gonna think your not enough and that you should die and there your gone ok makes sense now but I'll be fine this is all just stupid of me you get up and go to your room and lock your door, y/n open the door you stay silent and just look down at the floor thinking of just whether doing it or not y/n please you decide to check if he's still live. He is but he's not there he's outside your door y/n please open the door I don't want to loose you this is all just stupid of me no it's not let me help you duke I'm fine no your not just let me come in your live is still on idc this is stupid, I'm stupid no your not baby I'm going to the bathroom what are you doing bathroom for what? Dont do it you finish and go back to your bed baby? I'm here let me in no please no I'm scared scared of what? Idk let me in no please baby no you hear the door unlock and he comes in and hugs you are you ok yes I love you and always will ok? And just know you are enough and I love you and I can't imagine a world with out you I don't feel like enough why not you are look I'm just being stupid and insecure no your not go to sleep just relax he cuddles with you trying to get you to sleep what about the live they can wait, if you want I'll end the live and come back oh it's fine you can go no I'm not going to post or go live for a while why because I'll be spending my time with you and even if it doesn't help I know you will know I love you and always will

That's all tbh hate this too but like why he have to expose her on live like that, like poor y/n 😭