The Jeremy Gilbert Diaries Continued

3.14

I miss her so much. She used to make me smile in the mornings, but now there's nothing. Just silence as Elena, Alaric and I gather around the table to eat.

I miss her smile and her laugh.

I can't believe I lost another family member. And Aunt Jenna at that- she was so young, had so much life left.

First Anna and now Aunt Jenna herself- with this huge lack of Aunt Jenna energy in my life, what am I supposed to do? Who's contagious happiness am I going to get? How am I supposed to live?

Next I'll lose Elena. My heart is aching even more at the thought of it. I'll have to spend more time with Elena... my only regret is that I didn't spend more with Jenna.

I'd kill just to hug her one last time.

Her funeral is really soon. I have to prepare. I'm hoping I won't burst into tears.

Jeremy Gilbert