Remembering myself in 2020, I have been both weak and strong. I was weak when I lost hope in my dreams and achievements that I want to have but I was strong when I learned how to overcome them.
I was a very carefree type of girl for the half of 2020, I was always the ' go with the flow ' type, that one who feels so insecure about what I don't have that others have and I was that girl who thinks about the possible failures of the steps that I didn't make yet.
Months after the Pandemic started, being able to stay only in the house, I was given the chance to reflect on myself and to meditate. That taught me to be open minded about things, understand things and treasure everything that we have in life. To accept every flaw that we have.
Months of being in the house gave me the chance to bond with my family. To talk to them for hours and have snacks with them by the balcony.
I learned a lot in 2020, I just couldn't express them through words, all I can say is that all the things I neglected before are now what seems to be running in my mind all the time.
To help, understand, to be open-minded and to be everything good.
In a frank way of telling, I learned a lot of things that changed me.
In 2021 I want to leave behind the fear of being a failure, fear of not achieving, that mindset na "bahala na, okay lang 'to", and that maldita attitude sometimes hehe. I want to leave the insecurities. I want to leave all the bad things about me, the dark side of me, everything bad. I want to be strong.
We always want to have the good things right?
So in 2021, I want to continue being an understanding person.
I want to have that "you need to be damn serious because your future depends on you" in mind and that mindset that I am different from other people, I have a different vibe and style so I don't fit in sometimes, that I need to accept that others have things I don't and vice versa, that mindset that we shine and glow differently and in different times.
I want to keep that bond between me and my family. I want to keep them until forever.
I want to keep on improving each year, I want to be as good as I can be because that is what the world needs right now.
I am not sure if the things I want to leave will be totally left out, I think they are still here, a little of them, but I know little by little, they will also fade away until what's left are the things I want to keep and have
In this year, 2021, I hope for the best and I hope what I wanted to keep and have stays.
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