suicide

the last letter

 dear luke,

i couldnt do it.

im so sorry.

please dont hate me.

i realized that i cant

leave yet.

i have a session

today with dr. penny

and i need to see her

before i can do

any else.

i went and saw dr. penny,

and she forgave me.

i told her to 

forget about it, to

forget about me.

she asked if i

was okay, and

i said i was a whole

lot better than okay.

im at your grave again

and ive dug up the knife

from yesterday.

i am completely ready now.

ive gotten countless 

texts and calls

from liz and michael

wondering where i am

and if im okay.

i threw my phone deep

into the forest

because i dont need it anymore.

ive cut my wrists

several times

in the past ten minutes

and i can feel my

life slipping away.

im still very terrified

and i hope 

that youre there to

meet me halfway.

i love you so much

luke hemmings

you are and always

will be the reason

i breathed.

yours for eternity,

ahngie xx