Reality ➳ one direction

Chapter Five

My alarm went off. It was 7:00 a.m. Sunday school started at 9 am. Yes. I'm one of those girls. I take forever to get ready! So I had to wake up early so I could make sure that I would be ready in time for church. I put a maxi dress on. It was like a teal color with black flowers and I wore some black heels. I accessorised it with some black jewelry. I curled my hair. If you haven't noticed already, I love curling my hair. I did my makeup and then ate me some breakfast. As I ate I read my devotion. After devo I prayed, not just prayed, but really spoke to God and let Him speak to me. It was my favorite time of day.

Once I was ready I went to church. I walked into the church, being greeted by the greeters of the church. I went to my Sunday school class. I searched the room for Ariana. Once I found her I went to sit by her.

"Hey." she said looking up at me as I sat down.
"Hey. How are you?" I asked.
"Good. How about yourself?" She asked me.
"Good! Oh my goodness!! I have to tell you about my day yesterday!!" I said a little too excited!
She chuckled a little, "Okay."

I told her about what had happened and everything. I thankfully was able to tell her about it completely before Sunday school started. Brother Brandon was a great Sunday school teacher! I always got so much out of his class. After Sunday school was over we went to service. We didn't even hear the pastor preach that day. The move of the Holy Spirit was incredible! We worshiped the whole service! We even had tongues and interpretation. I loved services like those. I loved being able to feel Jesus' presence. Once service was over i talked to a few people at church! The people at Hope Assembly were amazing! They are truly my family! The ones that know what I'm here for have been so supportive of me. I have no idea where I would be without them! Even the pastor is great! I love him and his family.We were able to get along well, since I grew up a pastor's kid. Brother Eric and Sister Logan, that's the pastors, had three kids. Katie, the youngest, was 3. She was the cutest little thing! She was short and a little chunky, and had the cutest hair! It was brown with tight curls!! Then there were the twins, Kyle and Corrin. They were 15. Both blondes with the most beautiful, blue eyes. They were so sweet too. Corrin has really gotten attached to me. She's sort of having a hard time right now, being a pk that is. I'll admit, it's not the easiest thing in the world. I invited her to come and eat lunch with me and hang out at my apartment until the p.m. service. I know, I'm 23. Why would I hang out with a 15-year-old? Corrin is pretty mature. Plus, I enjoy hanging out with teenagers. I've always had a special love for youth. When she came over we did the typical girl thing. I did her hair and makeup. She was already wearing that makeup but she loved it when I have her makeovers so she washed it off and let me re-do it. Once I was done, I curled her hair.

"Can I ask you something?" She said while I was curling the first section.
"Of course." I replied.
"How did you deal with being a pastor's kid?"
I smiled a little taking a deep breath. "Well, there was a period in my life where I hated it. When I met somebody I would say my name was Aspyn Fox instead of Aspyn Taylor. Fox is my middle name by the way." She nodded her head understanding and I continued, "That way they wouldn't be able to tell I was the pastors daughter. When people would say, 'Wow I can't believe you would do that! You're the pastor's kid!' I would get so mad! I was doing the same thing they were doing but because I was a pk it was wrong for me to do it. It wouldn't be anything bad either. I would tell them how if it was wrong for me to do it then it was just as wrong for them to do it. I hated everything about being a PK. I seen no good in it, but eventually I learned to look for the good, not the bad. I thought of all the advantages of being a pk. You eventually will too. Trust me."
"Yeah. It's just... Idk. I always feel like I'm on some pedestal. Like I have to be a better Christian than everyone else only because I'm the pastor's daughter. There are times during alter call when I won't raise my hand because I don't want people to think bad of me. I mean, if the alter call is, 'If you don't know if you would go to heaven right now then raise your hand,' I won't raise mine. What if someone is looking. What would they think if the pastor's daughter had sinned during that past week or something." Her eyes started to water. My heart broke. I knew what she was going through because I had been through the exact same thing. I knew how hard it was. I was just glad I was able to understand her and help her.
"I know what you mean. I went through just about everything you are going through. I don't know if they have it here in England but in the states there was this thing of Pk retreat. It was for Assemblies of God pastor's kids too, so we all believed the same. I went to that and I think that is what helped me so much. I met this girl named Taylor and I told her what I was going through, which was basically the same thing you are going through. She said she had went through the same thing and she told e that everything would be alright. She told me how to love being a pk. When I told her what I was going through I started crying and she hugged me and let me cry on her shoulder for however long I needed too. I'll never forget her. That was where I learned that, I wasn't alone. There were people just like me. In the same position as me with the same broken hearts. Some of them had had their hearts healed and were able to help the ones like me that were hurt. If you can find out and see if there is one here in England then I highly suggest going. It will help so much. And like you were saying about the alter calls, it's all pastor's kids. They can't judge you because they are in the same boat as you."
"I'll have to ask my dad about that. It sounds like it's just what I need. Thanks." She said to me.
"No problem. And it's not just all sappy stuff like that by the way. It is fun too. They normally go somewhere as a fun day thing. One year we went to a baseball game and another year we went to a trampoline park, which as an absolute blast by the way. And like you can do a bunch of other things too."
"Really that sounds fun!" I told her all about some of my trips to Pk retreat and how they are. I finished doing her hair and by that time it was almost time for church. We had changed into some pjs, I just let Corrin borrow some of mine since she didn't have any with her, when we go to my apartment so we could be comfortable so we changed back into our clothes for church.
In our way to church Corrin said, "Thanks for letting me talk to you. It really helped."
I smiled a little. "You're welcome. If you ever need to talk about things like that or anything at all for that matter just let me know! That goes for Kyle too. I'm sure it gets hard on him too."
"Thanks and I'll tell Kyle that." She said smiling back at me.

The P.M service was good. The worship was amazing, and Pastor Eric preached a great sermon. After church I came home and cleaned a little. I text my mom a little too. I text Paul to see if I needed to do anything this week. I know I'm only the hair dresser but I want to make sure he didn't need anything done or needed any extra help on anything. He asked if I could run an errand or two this week for him. The tour was going to be starting next month and so he was pretty stressed trying to get everything prepared for that. I wanted to help out in anyway that I possible could. He said no. I started to make a list of things I would need to pack so I would be prepared. This was definitely going to be hard. With the buses being so little I could only pack so much. I definitely was not used to that. I'm the kind of girl who packs the whole house with her just to go on a two day trip, let a lone for 6 months! I thought of as much stuff as I possibly could but my brain decided to shut down and I couldn't get anymore things added to the list. I figured I needed sleep so I got ready for bed and went to sleep.

Hey guys!! Sorry the one is short!! Been super busy these past few weeks! Thanks for reading! Love yall and thanks!! xx😘