The unseen reality

6. Belief

After I cut the call, putting my head on the steering wheel I thought nothing could make this day worse after my talk with dad and mom, until my phone rang again. The name that flashed on the screen already made me angry, frustrated and most importantly cut the call and switch off the phone.

I answered the call and an angry female shouted at me from the other side, "what's wrong with you? You can behave like a good daughter but no.. you always have to make a scene make mumma sad again. Do you know how much she is worried about you? Look you have to be close to Raj because mom gave her word to his mom and you being a ungrateful piece of shit are being so rude to her! You should even be grateful cause after what you did Raj didn't break off the relationship! Do you know how much your these petty nuisance would cost mom and dad...?"

She went on and on until I said, "long time no talk sissy pants?"

I could hear her grind her teeth, but ignoring what I said she added to her statement, "look you should be mature everyone forgave you after what you did. It was a mistake everyone does that sometimes!"

"I guess you are right Di, but I am not my family's business deal!" My sister being one of those who believed others more than me and at this point the only people, I thought believed me was my brother, my sister-in-law and my dad. I never wanted to reply to her cause she is always an obnoxious person. Who only calls me when mom rants to her about me or she has to show me that she is my elder sister, loved more by mom and a very good child or what we call is a 'dream child'.

"You are crossing your line. Raj said clearly he didn't know about what had happened. Stop blaming him. It was your fucking mistake!"

"You know what di, you shouldn't call me. You are happy with your marriage, your pervert husband, and your 2 or 3 kids.. whatever I don't care! Mom and you should open a club called how to belittle people." I said with such frustration. All I wanted to do was hit her with something.

"What did you say?"

"That your husband is a pervert!"

"You are so in trouble!"

"Bite me!"

I disconnected the call angrily and just sat in the car waiting for Anil to show up. I connected my phone with the car and played a music. As I jammed with the music I turned around towards the backseat to get my bag and as I picked my bag i felt the cold again, the pain, the fear, the tight grip on my hands as I raised my hands there he was, smiling the blood from his head was dripping on my hand and with each drop it burnt my skin.

I hastily turned around opened the front liftgate and almost leapt out of the car, hurting my shoulder, chin, elbow, by falling out of the car, I felt the sharp pain in my head as my head hit the car next to mine. I got up trembling around and stood by the next car. When someone touched my shoulder. Still being scared I turned around.

To my surprise It was Anil. I don't know what got in me I hugged him so hard.

"What happened? Why are you covered in sweat?"

"I umm.. I.. can you give me a minute?"

"Sure!"

I took my bag and ran towards the ladies room. With every passing second I had no patience. I emptied my bag in the sink and searched for a small yellow bottle as I opened the bottle I remembered what the doctor said to me about taking these medications but I just took the last 4 pills and swallowed it like anything thinking what does he know about what I am going through.

After taking the medication and splashing my face with water I felt fine now but now I felt like I was just some drug addict who is addicted to these anxiety pills. Without thinking of anything I packed my bag and walked to the car. To my surprise Anil was gone leaving a note that said I am going with my friends for a birthday party hope you don't mind. I am sorry! When I come back we can talk! Will miss you. Love Anil.

Nothing in the note caught my eyes but the 'love Anil' part. Why would he write love? What's going on in his mind?.. I shouldn't have hugged him! What did I do?.... Thousands and thousands of questions filled my mind with with queries doubt and questions about my action.

I just got in the car pulled it back and was about to leave the campus when Raj came and stood infront of my car. Seeing him stand there I wanted to run the car over him and just watch him drown in his own pool of blood. As he started walking towards me my mind was already racing with speed of how should I defend myself my kicking his balls and scratching his face. He walked to the front window and without saying anything went around the car opened the front liftgate and sat besides me.

I looked at him with my eyes wide the sweat covered my forehead because of the anxiety pills I had no anxiety attack.

"Drive!" He said without saying any other word.

I just turned around locked the doors and started driving the car without even asking him where he wants to go.

"Why are going slow? Don't know where your house is?"

Without saying a word I drove straight to my apartment in 20 minutes we were there I took the car to my parking and he got out of the car and waited for me to come out of the car. But after I parked the car I didn't come out I stayed in the car hoping that he will just leave after getting bored of waiting.

I started stalling the parking time and until I saw in the rear view mirror Raj was gone. I got out of the car, took a quick scan of the parking and started running towards the lift as the lift door opened I saw Raj standing there and he said he such a calm voice, "missed me?"

"I am going with my friends..!" He started reading out loud the note that Anil left me.

"What you want?" I said in a very low voice even I couldn't hear what I said!

"Louder honey, always speak louder!"

"What you want?" I actually said it this time with some audible volume in it.

"Your sister Preeti texted me to check on you!" Saying this he put his hands on my wrist and pulled me in the lift.

"So tell me how are you honey?"

I was inside the lift and started moving just pressing the button for the 13th floor I said, "am fine!"

"How's your job?"
"What job?"
"Preeti said you have this I will live with my own money job!"
"Yes at the coffee house but..."
"But?"
"Today they i have a night shift!"
"So we can have a whole day together?"
"No I have to study!"
"Come on just you and me.. like old times you know what times.. but just this I would prefer you don't murder someone. Will you?"

The life door opened on my floor. I out of the lift when Anil's Grandma came out to see what I was up to. Raj came out of the lift after me and gave her a crooked smile. I couldn't have just ignored him there what if he made a scene and did something infront of everyone so gathering all the courage I had I said, "want to come in for a cup of coffee?"

"Yess ! That will be great!"

I unlocked the door and Raj came in.

"Nice apartment, uncle must really like you, he bought a flat decorated it so nicely aren't you lucky?"
"What you want?"
"Ohh yess! That I was thinking how about we talk."
"About?"
"About how you killed my friend!"
"I didn't kill him it was an accident hé hé tried to.." I wanted to tell him and explain how I didn't do anything.
"Tried to what?"
"Nothing!"
"Let me tell you what you did. You liked him you went to have sex with him and when he refused you being a rich brat stomped his head with a vase and then ran away."
"No I didn't!"
"Of course you didn't honey!"
"What?"
I clenched my fist so hard and threw a punch towards him, he caught my hand twisted it on my back and pushed me against the wall.
"This is what you wanted to hear right? But guess what, no one will believe you."
"Yes it didn't happen the way you said it did."
"No, it never happened no one will ever believe you. EVER. Wanna eat something? I am hungry! Let's order some food!"

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