our reality || N.JAEMIN

[Orphic]

"I'm starting to think I
know you better than yourself."
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Y/N's POV:

I tried to shift my position because my arm were starting to cramp up but i was unable to do so. Why can't i move? I opened my eyes and realised what happened last night.

Crap. Did i actually come here for real? That means he saw everything? My life is over, this is so embarrassing! After figuring it out,i noticed Jaemin's arms were wrapped around my waist and his right hand was resting on the top of my head while our legs tangled with each other under the blanket.

My hand was clutching his shirt which explains why my hands were cramping. His soft breaths filled in the quiet atmosphere. I glanced at the clock, 7 AM. Today's a Sunday meaning I don't have to rush or anything.

Why out of all people, him? I stared at his almost flawless face from a close distance. His long eyelashes, smooth skin and slightly chapped lips. "I look like a creep." I uttered under my breath and started to shake him slowly.

"I need to go to the bathroom ." My voice was being as quiet as ever. He took a while to process my words before letting go of my waist. I scurried to the bathroom and shut the door. The reflection in the mirror was much more embarrassing, my face was covered with a tint of pink. Damn you, Na Jaemin.

Approximately 10 minutes later, i build back my courage and left the bathroom. Jaemin was still in bed, a blanket covering almost all of his body except his head. Is it that cold? I walked over to the small table beside the bed and checked my phone.

2nd brother:

Hey, you okay? Everyone was shock when you left. Mother was more furious.

I ruffled my hair and cursed to myself. Definitely will earn an earful lecture and an hour worth of scolding. Her words replayed again in my mind as if it's a tape. "I should just brush it off."

"Brush what off?" I flinched upon hearing Jaemin's morning voice. How am I supposed to explain this to him? Should i say it was an accident? I was drunk? No, I'm not legal yet to drink. "Care to tell me what happened? You really caught me off guard." He tugged a strand of my hair.

"Forget about it." I said trying to act confident. "Seriously?" He scoffed. "I'm starting to think i know you better than yourself." My eyes widened at his statement. I stood up face him directly.

"I'm serious. Just-." He pulled my hand and pinned me to the bed header that was covered with a pillow. "Can you trust me for once? Don't act like everything is fine and let it go that easily. I've been trying to understand you better but your attitude is making it a never ending cycle. Plus, your tsundere personality is making it much more difficult."

His black orbs stared into mine with a stoic expression. This is when i could sense, he's angry. "It's not important for you, Jaemin. Just some family problems." I sighed. "If it's not important to me then why did you come go me last night? What about Shimzu? Or even Taehyun?!"

Shimizu? She's out of town this weekend and there's no way in hell I'm going to Taehyun. "I don't know okay?" He let me go and let out a long frustrated sigh. "Please? Tell me?" He's begging. Why? Why is he so interested? There's nothing intriguing about this so why?

Knowing he won't stop anytime soon, i sit up straight and started to tell him everything from the start of our childhood. His eyes never left my figure even for a second. He even asked the nurse to wait outside for his daily dose of antibiotics.

Soon enough, i stopped talking and wiped the single tear that was rolling down my right cheek. Here i am, crying again. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being able to be there for you." He whispered. "Nevermind. It's not like you can do anything." I stood up and took my bag before leaving the room.

"Now he's probably going to think that I'm weird won't he? And he'll leave just like everyone else. I guess i am a freak after all."