"To Be With You Once More is All I Wish For." -[Banana Fish One Shot.]

{Banana Fish.|| Ash.}

{Banana Fish Spoilers!}

Dear Ash,

I often question how you're in the afterlife, is it treating you well? I hope it is, I'm sure it's much more peaceful than here. Despite how long it's been, I never can get you out of my head. It's been 4 years, yet your voice, touch, appearance, and scent is all I can think about it.
Sometimes I wish I couldn't remember you, it hurts my heart each time. I'm sure you've felt worse though, isn't that right? It's stupid of me to think such things, in the end, I'll never forget about you. It's both a blessing and curse, you've brought me happiness but also brought me pain. I can't blame you though, you will always be important to me whether you hurt me or not. Like I said, even if the world turns on you, I'll be right by your side. I'll always stick to those words, but some days I feel hopeless. If I hadn't written that letter you'd still be alive. I must've been a nuisance, right? I apologize.
Some days I imagine you being here with me, doing our normal routine. I remember how you'd just sleep anywhere. It was a bit frustrating, but hey, it was apart of you so I couldn't bring myself to hate that side of you. Those habits I once thought were aggravating ended up being what I missed, I miss you. I miss Shorter too. I'm glad you're at least not lonely in the afterlife. Sometimes I wish I was there with you guys, it'd seem fun, but I'm living for the three of us. I don't want to let you down as I've had already, so please trust me with your souls as I did with both of you.
I wish I could hug you once more. It's somewhat lonely without you, it feels like my heart has a void in it. Although I'm happy, I'm just still recovering from the loss. You would want me to be happy anyway, isn't that correct? Although I'm still terrified to enter that taunting library. Seeing anyone similar to you makes me light up with hope only just to have it shattered. I'll be strong for you though.
I'll never forget you, Ash. Thank you for the happiness you brought me. Thank you.

- Eiji Okumura