traffic thoughts.

.acceptance

I did not understand one thing for a long time:
Even after he left me, I still thought that maybe he'd come back. That maybe he'd love me, that someday he'd understand that he wants me. I had that thought and it tore me apart. I had that war inside my head. There was no quiet second, believe me. I held on for so long, but one day I woke up in the morning, with swollen-teardropped eyes, and I realized:
He won't come back.
He was too afraid to admit his true feelings, not to him, and especially not to others. He was too afraid to leave his girlfriend because he didn't want to cause a scene or a discussion. He wanted to live quietly, and that was his only decision.
When someone isn't clear about wanting you or not, or even wanting you or wanting another person, leave. That whole thing won't give you happiness, it'll give you hurt. And even if he chose you, you will never have 100% of him. Because that other 50/30/20% belong to the other person. I want you to have a person who wants you, and only you. Someone who's clear about you, someone who's brave enough to be a man.