Kim Taehyung Imagines

Regret

"Ugh! I'm c-close!"

"I'm not done yet, princess." His thrust become sloppier and slower. "Go ahead." With that my body twitches feeling myself release on him. He pulls out quickly to release on my back.  I lay on my stomach tired.

He cleans my back up and lies next to me. Again, doing the same thing I tried convincing myself not to. I fall asleep feeling myself being dressed but I'm used to it.

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I wake up to the sound of his voice. "Listen I can't do this anymore- no I'm not sleeping with her." He turns his head towards me. I climb out of bed and look for my hoodie. "It's over." He hangs up the phone and tosses it to the side with a sigh escaping his mouth.

"I'm leaving." I finally find it and quickly put it on now looking for my phone. "Wait why?" "Kim Taehyung you're a player. I keep telling myself to not end up in that bed with you yet I always do. I'm done." I cross my arms across my chest while standing a bit far from him.

"Y/n I'm not a player." Taehyung stands up and walks towards me, shirtless. "You are. You keep sleeping with me while you have these girls thinking you're a loyal boyfriend. I'm even worst for having the knowledge of it and-" "I understand. You're phone is right over there."

"Thanks." I grab my phone and walk out of his bedroom and downstairs for my keys. "I picked you up remember?" Taehyung says from behind me making me jump a little. I sigh and roll my eyes.

"I'll just take a taxi home." I press the button to my phone but it's dead. "Can we talk before you leave? I have some things to admit to." He steps closer to me adjusting his shirt I didn't realize he put on.

"Well my phone is dead so I guess I don't have a choice." Tae takes it from my hands gentle and slow while keeping his eyes on me. "I'll charge it. My room?" "You think I'm going to go back to the same room we had sex in?"

"We had sex everywhere in here." Taehyung's ears turn red when he says that. I hear the rain drops hit the ground outside which makes my situation worse. "Fine. Don't touch me." I storm pass him and back up the stairs, into his room. The memories of last night cloud my mind.

I should've have not let it get this far. I have to tell him no.

"I've noticed you've been trying to distance yourself from me so I guess I'll address this before I never see you again." Confused I sit on the bed. "Before you fell asleep I saw what you wrote in your notes." "You went through my phone."

"I was ridding of....people on my phone and I just got curious." I cross my arms and stand up walking closer to him. "You wanted to see if I was doing you how you do me hm? I don't have a boyfriend and other men I talk to or fool around with, Kim Taehyung."

He sighs and rubs his neck as if he's anxious about something. "I was wrong. I'll admit it."

"Now you admit how wrong you are for treating girls like this? I'm just as in the wrong for letting it get this far!" My face hot from my temper and it's only obvious he isn't breaking ice with me. "I'm wrong. I can't put you in fault for what I did because I feel like I peer pressured you into it. Whenever it calms down outside I'll drive you home. Give me a minute. Excuse me." Taehyung walks out of the room shutting the door behind him.

I want to be so angry at him for playing these girls like toys but I'm not as furious. Something's different.

I plug my phone up and quietly open the door. "Y/n." I jump to the sound of his voice coming from the left side of me. "It's getting pretty bad outside. It's going to be storming all day so you can stay in my room for the d-day and I won't bother you or I-I-"

I look more closely at his face. It's red. "Why were you crying?" I walk up to him and hold his face but he quickly moves my hands. "That's not going to matter to you, Y/n. I have some phone calls to make alright?" His voice softer than usual.

"Tell me what it is." "I can't do that. I'm so sorry." A few tears fall from his eyes and my eyes widen. I drag him in the room and make him sit in bed. "Y/n I don't-" "Shut up and appreciate it." I climb in bed and give him that look. "Y/n." His voice cracks. I sigh and sit on his lap, straddling him, allowing him to hug me for comfort.

"I'm so sorry. Give me some months and I'll have everything corrected a-and I-" "Just let it out." My shoulder becomes wet with tears. Taehyung holds me close. His body tense and shaking against mine. "What's got you all shaken up? This isn't you."

One thing about Taehyung and I, anytime I feel the need to cry or express something to him he's there and stuck to me like glitter. "I don't want you to l-leave me forever." His sobs becoming so loud it slurs his words a bit.

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The whole day we spent talking and trying to understand each other's point of views. "Sex can stop but I'm just not okay with you walking out of my life." Taehyung holds my hand tightly.

"I have to go make a few calls. Sit tight for me." Taehyung stands up and leaves the room, gently letting my hand go.

I begin thinking about everything today. But this all started because he-

Wait he read my notes!? He seen my prewritten messages I wanted to send to him but I didn't.

My hands start to shake and I begin to feel nervous. Almost 30 minutes pass and I become worried so I exit the room to follow Taehyung's voice. "I'm sorry. I was wrong and I know I hurt you. Okay." I hide behind the wall hearing him sigh.

"Bro I need your help." Taehyung looks in my direction but I'm hidden. "Yes it's about Y/n- she's not up for fucking auction!" I've never heard him so angry before. "Well look stop being a fucking prick and give me advice. If you touch her I'm going to beat the shit out of you. Understand? I thought so." He hangs up the phone and lets out a large sigh.

"You can come out now." Taehyung calls out making me a bit shocked. I walk forward and look up in his eyes. "You were gone for a little while so I wanted to check on you to make sure you didn't do anything stupid." I smile sheepishly.

"You think I'd traumatize you're beautiful- y-you-" Taehyung stops himself while looking away from me. I touch his chest making him flinch a little. "Since when did you become so fragile?" "Since I realized I could lose you in a split second." He puts his hand over mine. I feel his beating heart.

"You know those movies were the girl somehow changes the guy to be a better version of himself? I used to think 'how can a female change a guy like that' until I started looking deeper in your eyes, looking closer at how goofy and cute you are, and I started appreciating your body more. It's not a toy it's something to treasure and I've realized that too late."

My heart starts racing the more I look into his eyes. "I've realized all these things too late." "Did you read everything in my notes?" He nods and smiles a little bit. "I read your cute confession but I've read it before. First time I read it I was being a dick. The second time I started catching those feelings. After that I broke up with my girlfriend and decided not to mess with a few more girls.

Then I read how you felt about my actions and I couldn't agree more. So I changed my number, put it in your phone, and today completely got rid of everyone. I only open up about how I feel to you. I never thought I'd feel these feelings for a girl so strongly and it's been tearing me apart inside. I read about your anxiety attacks that's why I always know and I started learning the signs so you wouldn't catch me reading your notes but I'm caught now aren't I?"

We chuckle together. "You better not be playing with me Kim." I grab his hand and drag him into his room and shut the door behind me. "Y/n what are you-" I smash my lips into his while pushing him against the door.

"I'll fall too deep." Taehyung breaks the kiss while holding my face. "I'm not okay with hurting you more than I already have."

I'm speechless. "I'll take you home now-"

"I don't want to go." "I won't take advantage of you. I can't do it again." Taehyung almost on the verge of tears stares deep into my eyes. "When I kissed you I wasn't taking advantage of you. The only thing in my mind is me loving you."

He smiles and kisses my lips gently. "Then show me how to love you."

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