Maybe? || DaiSuga

Chapter 4: River

    "hey uh, i need to go to the bathroom. i'll be right back," i said, standing up.
    "o-oh, ok."

    i walked out the door and walked down the hall. i took a right and entered the bathroom. quickly shutting and locking the door behind me, i slid down. i curled up into a ball and... cried. i tried to keep it silent so daichi wouldn't hear me, but...it was so hard. sure, i should be to blame. it was my idea. it was my idea to ask if he liked anyone. i was the one that pried the answer from him. i was the one that insisted. it's my fault i'm heartbroken and crying in the bathroom.

how long have i been in here? daichi will probably get worried if i don't come out soon.

    i stood up and patted down my sweatpants. i turned and looked in the mirror. i was a mess. my eyes were red and puffy from crying so much and my hair was all over the place. god i'm such a mess, i thought, rubbing my eyes with the back of my hands.
why would he ever like a mess like me? i was stupid to even think i had the chance.

    i opened the sink faucet, letting the water run. somehow, the sound of the water rushing out was almost... soothing. i rested my hands on the edge of the sink and closed my eyes. silently, i listened to the water. the sound of it rushing out, like a waterfall crashing onto rocks below. it was like, just for a moment, all my problems and worries went away, as if the water swept them away like a river.
    i cupped my hands under the spray of water and threw it at my face. i repeated that a couple of times and rubbed my face with the palms of my hands. i opened my eyes and looked in the mirror. you could still see that my eyes were red and a bit puffy, but not as much as before.
    surely he won't notice.

once again, i used my fingers to comb my hair down a bit. i sighed and open the bathroom door.
"hey suga. is everything alright?" daichi said as soon as i entered upon my room again. "are you sure you're feeling wel- wait! why are your eyes red? surely you can't be okay. you must be sick."

in the span of those few seconds, daichi had already gotten himself off the bed and was standing right in front of me, the back of his hand to my forehead. i hugged myself and looked down.
daichi please. please don't do that. you're making it worse. stop making me fall for you. for every little thing you do.

"i-i'm fine daichi. i'm just tired now, i guess."

"suga... you may not realize it, but i'm your best friend, and i know when something's wrong or when you aren't feeling well."
he put his right hand on my shoulder and with his left he tilted my head up so we made eye contact. his dark brown eyes, staring deep into my soul, felt as if... they were talking to me. as if they were telling me, "please don't lie to me. i know you aren't okay. i just want to help you feel better. please, let me know what's wrong."

oh if only i could tell you.

January 28, 2021
(A/N: hey guys! hope you like chapter 4. i keep trying to make longer chapters but my brain just decides to go against me and say "haha. no❤️." but oh well here you go. anygay, see yall later in chapter 5.
-Lena🤍)