I was never afraid of darkness,
of the monster under my bed
But now I know,
when I switch the light off
I switch them on
My Demons
Hiding in my head
whispering, hissing
Sending me on a journey,
Without an end
They conquer my head, my room
Questioning everything
Me,
What am I worthy? Who am I? Where is my place? Where do I belong?
Panting me the most beautiful worst case scenario
"Attentione whore"
"Show off"
"Poser"
"Egocentric"
Letting me remember,
how I was
who I was
The always smiling tough girl, with a happy family, lots of friends and the best marks
What are you now? They laugh at me
Crying because of literaly nothing
Hinding in my room from my parents,
pretending Im ok
Beeing lonely in the middle of the group
And stressing myself for no reason
Get your shit together!
They scream and I hide
Hide behind my sarcasm and fake smile
While every part of me is just tired
I'm tired.
Tired of myself
Tired of the others
Tired of the world,
Which I wish I could just switch of like the lights
But I cant
I can just breath
In and out
Feeling the tears at my pillow
Hearing my heart beat
Alone in the darkness
