Grasping at Freedom

The Note Under The Bed

Written on: February 5, 2015
Published on Wattpad on: February 7, 2015

[This was written very late at night. I had been home for 3 days due to a back injury. This note was hand written because its so important.]

I had thought about it during vacation in California during the Summer of '14 at a resort in Palm Desert. At that point, I was looking mainly for proof that I was abused it something that happened counted as abuse, although I don't remember why I thought this. I think that maybe mom and dad were fighting an I got yelled at and slapped. ANYHOW, Emily brought it up last week while we were waiting for drama rehearsal to start when I told her what was going on in my house. We just vented about stuff together, it was really helpful.

But her words stuck with me.

Maybe I SHOULD become an emancipated minor.

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Although I truly should have began these notes earlier in the week, I didn't. I think I was to worked up about it to think straight.
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I told Penny, Gwen, and Misty about it. Misty seemed really against it, which made me mad at first, but it helped bring me back to Earth. I have to be 💯% sure that its what I want. My plan isn't going to be easy. (two other people I know also heard when I was talking to Penny, I think so anyway)

I want to be emancipate because I want to feel safe in my own home, I want consistency, I want to know that I will always be loved (that it's not contingent on my behavior), and I want to be able to breath.

Penny looked some things up for me on Monday during Study Hall, and I did as well. She read that teens granted emancipation are usually abused or stolen from by their parents. Several sources that I found said that the state I live in does not have an emancipation law, and my heart dropped. Penny urged me to keep looking though, and I finally found a site that said something along the lines of; the law tells how the court proceeding should go, yet it can be done without it. I was ecstatic.

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One thing I read nearly everywhere I looked during that study hall said that I needed to show financial independence. I know 6 ways of doing so:
1) Get a normal person job. (Unfortunately, I have no car, and although my mom says she doesn't mind driving me places, I know she actually hates it.)
2) Being a nanny/babysitter (Can't think of anything wrong with that one)
3) Become an Origami Owl consultant (not going to work. you have to throw jewelry parties and talk to people, which I can't do.)
4) Start my business (sounds perfect! I even had a custom order come in the other day and my business isn't officially launched yet!!)
5) write a book (I can do that!)
6) beg for money (How about no)

So I have three good options.

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I'm afraid to further look up anything about emancipation in my state because 1) it will crush me if it's not even possible and 2) knowing there is a definitive end to my work will motivate me. Even if I find out I cannot become emancipated, I'll have tons of money for college.

NOTE: PLEASE DON'T TELL ME EITHER
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I know have a motto (more like a list of words) which I must live by to accomplish my dream. They'll be written on my are or carried on a slip of paper in my pocket at all times. The words will be written in Aurebesh [This is the letters that the words are written on the Star Wars Monopoly money. See the picture or google it]
•clean•organized•silent•motivated•helpful•obedient•

I will ask Mr. Frame [Jenna's friend's dad who is a lawyer] what he know about emancipation in my state after: I have typed over 150 pages of my book and my business has profited over $700.

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I must do the following to prepare:
-create a list of grievances
-create a budget and necessary total to survive alone
-follow my "motto"
-come up with ways of telling my parents I want emancipated and/or handing them the court summons
-write and publish novel (the sooner the better so that it has more time to become popular)
-launch business
-have bags and necessities packed in case of retaliation from my parents when I tell them about my emancipation (I won't have to worry about this for a while though)
-also have an escape plan for what was mentioned above (Gwen, grandparents, aunt and uncle 2 hours away?

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I had watched a video of some guys from California that said teens wanting emancipation generally hate all authority, so emancipation isn't good for them. Thankfully I don't have that problem.

I had added a bunch of videos to my YouTube watch later (before I decided not to do any more research about it). I hoped that Jenna wouldn't find them because that we're at the bottom of over 30 videos. But Jenna saw them and asked my mom what emancipation was. I thought, "crap, I've barely even had time to think about it and now I'm screwed." Thankfully I came up with an idea in time. I told Jenna we got into an argument about it at school and I was doing research to prove that I was right (what I said that point was I can't remember now). Hopefully there will be no more close calls.

Note: I will not ask for emancipation until I can legally drive.

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