As I click "Log On" excitement rushes down my neck; Liam Davies might be online! While my Facebook page loads I let myself have another moment for a perfect daydream. I imagine a tall, brown haired boy standing in front of me. His emerald green eyes meet mine and before you know it he's holding my waist, going in for a passionate ki-
"Amber! Dinner's ready!"
OUCH! Oh my God, it's the fourth time I've done this! Falling off of my bed right before the kiss.
"I'm not hungry" I shout back as if everything was fine and quickly get my Science assignment from under neath the bed, find a pen at the bottom of my giant mountain of clothes and close my MacBook. Knowing my mother she will be coming up here in exactly 4..3..2..1..
"Everything OK?" Hazel Carter, my mum is in my room! I put a sign on my door saying "DO NOT ENTER OR ELSE" but no one ever listens to me. "How many times do I have to tell you to tidy your room? Family's coming over tomorrow!"
"Oh sorry, you see I didn't know that gatherings were held in my room." I reply sarcastically without turning round, wishing she would go and I could finally talk to Liam.
"So disrespectful! Look at your brother: well behaved and polite. What happened to you?" my mother says as she storms out of my room. FINALLY! Pushing my assignment off my bed I instantly reach for my laptop. Scroll down my friend list to find that Liam Davies was online 7 minutes ago. You have to be kidding me right? 7 minutes ago I was logging onto Facebook! Stupid mother, all her fault!!
Ugh.Waking up in the morning is the worst! I grab my phone and scroll through my YouTube subscriptions, checking if 'Forever Loving' has uploaded a video. Unfortunately there is no recent updates from her channel which instantly puts a frown on my face. Since I moved to Northampton it feels like I've lost a part of me; Brooklyn and I were inseparable and now I feel shy typing "Hi", starting a conversation with an absolute stranger. Or should I say- just a favourite YouTuber? Yes, sounds more like it now. Right.
"Stop sulking" I mutter to myself, dreading getting out of my warm bed."5 more minutes should be okay really".
To the left I see my MacBook and then I remember how I fell off of my bed over Liam Davies last night. The same exiting feeling rushes down my body as I open up my Facebook feed.
"OH NO!" What has just happened? Ashley Hudson posted a photo of me- it's a very inappropriate one but I didn't take it! It's an edit I swear!! I keep scrolling down, pinching myself and trying to come back to reality. How? Why? Who? Liam Davies.. Davies..
"He commented!!" I exclaim.
"Amber? Is that you shouting? Your brother is asleep!"
"Dad, it was a video, sorry I'll turn it down" I don't know what I'm saying. A video? What video? I'm an idiot. All I care about now is that comment that I have yet to view. Okay. I'll be brave enough to view it and maybe he stuck up for me, you never know. I click 'Comment' and close my eyes in agony. Opening them slowly I stare at it. My eyes are burning from the light but I can't get myself to move- I'm paralised. "Dirty slag, what does she think of her self?"
Oh my God. My life turned from fairytale into hell in a second. How am I supposed yo go to school? Especially when I'm the 'new kid'! I shiver- it's nothing to do with excitement this time. No. Fear penetrates my body as I struggle to breath. Everything is fading away.. Falling, falling, fal-
"Amber!"
"Wake up! We haven't got time to waste on you!"
"Amber I have to ho to my football class! I swear if you're doing this on purpose.."
I feel sweat dripping down my face- I can't tell my family, no! Never in a lifetime. If they really cared then I would be understood, then maybe I wouldn't be a waste of space and their time?
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A Photographer in the Dark.
TerrorA touching story about a 14 year old Amber suffering from severe anxiety and depression. Signing up to a dating site has really helped her mood as being the 'new kid' in the Northampton High School isn't easy. She falls in love within seconds but...
