ANIDITA : A Life For Revolution

CHAPTER 3 : Part 4

Bondita's p.o.v

She was lying down on bed when I entered the nursing room, her head resting on the pillow and eyes closed. Her steady breaths induced a relief inside me. I didn't know what connection I had with her but I did know she affected me some way or the other. May be because I knew we both went through a similar tragedy in our lives. It was very painstaking and personal for me... This problem was much personal for me.

"Woh neend mein nahi hai... Baat kar sakthi ho tum uss se" I heard Bholi behind me. I smiled at her and nodded.

As soon as she felt a presence near her, her eyes shot open and I didn't fail to see the sudden panic passing through them. I felt a pang of pain inside me but I pushed it aside and smiled at her widely.

"Darna mat! Mein Bondita hoon"

My name seemed to sooth her nerves and she gave out a relieved breath.

"Pata nahi apki shukriyaada keise karoon Choti Malkin... Agar ap nahi hoti toh mein..." she trailed off.

"Dhanyavad ki koyi zaroorat nahi hai... Ap bas aaram kijiye"

She nodded and relaxed herself.

"Weise mein jaldbaazi nahi kar rahi hoon lekin apse kuch batana tha..."

She gazed at me expectantly and I narrated the incidents to her. As soon as I finished, I saw her hands sweating and eyes darting tensely.

"Yeh ap kya kah rahi hai Choti malkin? Mein keise le loongi faisla? Mujhse nahi hoga yeh sab"

"Kyun nahi hoga? Dekhiye ap akele nahi hai... Ham sab hai apke sath. Apko jo acha lage ap kijiye... Un mein se koyi bhi apka kuch nahi bigaad paoge"

"Ap samajh nahi rahi ho... Mere paas wapas jaane ke alawa aur kya rastha bacha hai? Pet se hoon mein... Akele keise... Wapas jana hi hoga mujhe" she shook her head, crying bitterly.

I held her hand.

"Dekhiye Grahati... Grahati hi hai na?"

She nodded in a yes between her sobs.

"Agar ap wapas jaana chahte hai toh yahan koyi apko nahi rokenge. Lekin jo bhi faisla lena hai, soch samajhkar lijiye... Kya ap wapas apne pati ke sath jaana chahogi ya phir yahan... in sab ke sath, aram se... ek swathanthr zindagi bithana chahogi?"

Her eyes widened at my offer.

"Apke aur apke aulat ka bhi khoob khayal rakhenge ham... Aur sirf itna hi nahi, agar ap chahti hai toh ek alag ghar ka bhi prabandh kar sakthe hai ham. Badle mein hamein sirf apki madat chahiye hogi... Mahila ghar ko sambhalne walon mein se ek... Bas!"

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It wasn't like I was very excited and interested to see her family coming up to know her decision. But we promised that we would inform them when she gains consciousness and Roy Chowdharys always keeps their promises.

"Boudi! Lagta hai apki prathana bhagwan ne sun hi li"

"Kya hua Batuk?"

"Dada ko achanak kisi case ke silsile mein Culcutta jaana pada"

"Matlab Pati babu chale gaye? Bina bataye?"

"Suna hai bohot zaroori kam se gaya hai"

How can he go just like that? Didn't he consider bidding a goodbye to me at least for once? Let him come back! I'm not going to talk to him ever and this time, no number of Rasagullas are going to stop me from being adamant!