Where do we begin?

Chapter One

(Starfire)

Rape. The one word no one wants to hear or be in the situation of. But I guess I am unlucky. Because of that night a week ago, I fail to sleep properly and I wake up feeling sick every morning. I do not think this is normal. I know! I will look for help from Raven. She will know what to do. I walked to her room and knocked. She answered and raised an eye brow.

"Yes?" she asked.

"Raven, I was wondering if you could help me with a personal problem." I told her. She moved and opened her door more so I could go in. Once in, we sat on her bed.

"So what's your problem, Starfire?" she asked, concern showing in her eyes. She wasn't wearing her cloak.

"I am waking up sick each morning. It goes from puking to horrible stomach aches." I told her, hoping she could fix it.

"Well, if it's repetitive, you could be pregnant." she told me. I gasped. I don't remember the guy using protection. I stood up and ran out of the room. I ran right by Nightwing. I didn't want him to see me cry at the news. I went to the roof and sat at the edge. Nightwing came out moments later. He sat next to me.

"You okay, Star?" he asked, coming to sit down next to me. I couldn't look at him. Not with the knowledge that the baby inside of me isn't his.

"Yes. Everything is fine." I told him, forcing a smile. He raised a brow and shook his head.

"Star, we're married. You do know that I know when you're lying, right?" he asked, scowling at me. I sighed and looked at the ocean.

"When we were in Gotham visiting Bruce last week, I was walking to the Manor from visiting Raven and Beast Boy at their hotel. I was pulled into an alley and someone raped me, whispering such vile words into my ear while doing so. After he was done, I didn't have the strength to get up and I told you that I stayed with them because it was too late to walk to the Manor. For the past week, I've been puking and having stomach pain. I asked Raven and she said that I might be pregnant. She is probably right. I don't remember the guy pausing to put on a condom." I told him the whole story. His eyes narrowed under his mask and he growled. He stood up and so did I.

"Are you serious? You lied to me? And someone touched you? Why didn't you stop him? Blast him? Scream? SOMETHING?!" he yelled at me. I flinched and looked away from him. I was ashamed. But I wasn't Starfire in Gotham. I was Kori Anders Grayson.

"You told us to keep a low profile. Don't let anyone know that we're the Teen Titans. It isn't our city. It's Batman's city." I told him exactly what he told us. He growled at me and I stepped back. He doesn't like when people quote him and prove him wrong.

"So that meant you could just let the guy rape you?!" he yelled more. I backed up and put my hands up in a surrender position. I shook my head.

"I was following your orders." I tried to calm him down. He growled and shook his head. Then, he walked back inside. Did he not accept the child? Did he not want them? He wasn't Bruce's child, but Bruce still took him in. Why won't he take this child in like Bruce did with him? I walked back inside and to my room. I sat on my bed and mused over the idea of leaving for Tameran once and for all. No turning back. No coming back or regretting anything. Although, I would miss my friends. I was pulled from my thoughts by a knock.

"Starfire, are you okay? You've been in there for awhile and we're heading out for pizza." Beast Boy said from outside my door. I opened it and smiled.

"Yes, Beast Boy. I'm fine. I'll join you." I told him and followed him down to the garage. Nightwing was on his motorcycle and the rest of the team was in the T-car. I decided to fly. Once we arrived, I sat between Cyborg and Raven. All except Nightwing gave me questioning looks. I gave a fake smile and acted as if nothing was wrong.

"Starfire are you okay? You seem a little on edge." Cyborg asked. He noticed. Dang it!

"She's fine. She just lacks the ability to fight people off or realize when she should use her powers. Go against my orders." Nightwing growled out. I looked down at my lap and tried to keep myself from crying.

"Okay. What am I missing? You two were fine this morning. Now it's like Starfire's afraid to even talk to you, never mind sit by you or even be near you." Beast Boy asked.

"Someone raped Starfire in Gotham. But she didn't fight him off. She claims it was because she was Kori Anders Grayson and she was told to keep a low profile. Don't let anyone know we're the Titans while we're in disguise." Nightwing told them, his voice cold and filled with hated. Whether it was towards me or the guy who raped me, I don't know.

"Those were your orders. For all of us, in fact. Plus, you refuse to teach Starfire combat. You claim it's because she's fragile and has powers." Raven said, sticking up for me.

"It's her job to protect herself!" Nightwing yelled while hitting his fist on the table. It made me jump and my hair covered my face.

"What the hell, dude? You're her husband. What's really happening?" Cyborg asked, getting defensive over me. Protective older brother. He loves helping me and protecting me. He sees himself as an older brother, always there.

"Her husband, but not the father of the beast inside of her." he growled out, glaring at my stomach. I finally had enough and got up to go home. I flew to the rocks by the Tower. It's a great place to think and cry. I sat as close to the water as I could while sitting on a rock.

Why doesn't he want this child? Why won't he just accept it?

I don't know how long I've been out here, but it got colder and I was shivering. I closed my eyes due to tiredness and let the cold darkness consume me.

(Nightwing)

I hurt her. I could tell by her not sitting by me, not looking at me, and her not being in our bedroom. It used to be my bedroom. Her old bedroom is still there. She left the pizzeria by flying. She got there by flying. She didn't even join me on my motorcycle. And she loves it! We arrived back at the Tower and Cyborg said she wasn't in her room. He looked by the water and saw a figure. I went out to check and it was Star. She was asleep and cold. It was cold out here. I had to put on a jacket. I brought her inside and to our room.

How could I be so heartless? She was raped and I gave her specific orders. I'm such an idiot.

I undressed her and put her in warmer clothing. I put her in very cute black sweatpants and  a long sleeve shirt with one of my big hoodies over it. I put her under the covers and went to the kitchen to get some water. I walked by the window and looked over at the water. That guy who raped my Star better watch his step. He won't like meeting me, Nightwing or Dick Grayson. Either way, we're both assholes when you mess with our shit.