In love with Billie Eilish

The question

⚠️⚠️⚠️-Suicide attempt-⚠️⚠️⚠️
you have been warned - read at your own risk I love you

Y/n's pov
Once I arrived back at my house, I heard someone singing. I walked into my music room to see Billie, Claudia, Finneas, scar and Chloe. Billie was singing ilomilo.

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Told you not to worry
But maybe that's a lie
Honey, what's your hurry?
Won't you stay inside?
Remember not to get too close to stars
They're never gonna give you love like ours
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As I walked into the room I began singing the chorus.
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Where did you go?
I should know, but it's cold
And I don't wanna be lonely
So show me the way home
I can't lose another life
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Everyone looked back at me and scar spoke up and said,
"Billie is live on Instagram."
I then said,
"Oops I'm so sorry"
I turned around to walk out of the room but Billie grabbed my hand a pulled me over to her. She then chimed,
" the fans really want you to sing."
I smiled and questioned ,
"Then what should I sing?"
Lots of fans replied with i love you by Billie.
So I got up and walked over to my piano and sat down on the stool, Billie then got up with the phone and sat down next to me and placed the phone in front of both of us.
I then started playing the piano...
I close my eyes and then I began singing.

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It's not true
Tell me I've been lied to
Cryin' isn't like you
Ooh
What the hell did I do?
Never been the type to
Let someone see right through
Ooh

Maybe won't you take it back?
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothin' has to change today
You didn't mean to say, "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to
Ooh

Up all night on another red eye
I wish we never learned to fly
Maybe we should just try
To tell ourselves a good lie
I didn't mean to make you cry

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Billie started to sing with me.
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Maybe won't you take it back?
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothin' has to change today
You didn't mean to say, "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to
Ooh

The smile that you gave me
Even when you felt like dyin'
We fall apart as it gets dark
I'm in your arms in Central Park
There's nothin' you could do or say
I can't escape the way I love you
I don't want to, but I love you
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As we finished we both realised, Ellie was filming us and everyone was crying
Fans then began asking me to sing one of my songs, I decided to sing the song I sang the other night. No one else has heard it, it was only the people that was in the room the other night heard it.
So I only sung a bit of the song.

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I used to think that I was made out of stone
I used to spend so many nights on my own
I never knew I had it in me to dance anymore
But goddamn, you got me in love again
Show me that heaven's right here, baby
Touch me, so I know I'm not crazy
Never have I ever met somebody like you
Used to be afraid of love and what it might do
But goddamn, you got me in love again
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Everyone then said goodbye to everyone on the live and we ended it.
Everyone was still in tears so we all had a group hug, once we all pulled away Billie asked,
"How was the interviews?"
I smiled and said,
"they were fine"
The first one was ok but the second one, someone had managed to find out about the whole Karla thing, I was not prepared for the question. They asked me what happened, I just told them it didn't end well. But I will only get asked more and more questions so I'm going to have to come clean soon.
I guess everyone knew something was wrong so I just told them straight out, I had a few sympathetic looks. I hated when people looked at me like that it made me feel weak and hopeless.
I gather they noticed and was quick to say sorry about but I had enough, I just stood up and walked out of the house. Just as I got into my car, Billie ran out of the door and looked defeated.
I just drove off.

Billies pov
Damn it, why did Finneas and Claudia have to look at her like that. I was defeated I couldn't stop her, I tried to find her location but she turned it off. I then got a notification from Instagram saying y/n was live, I quickly clicked on it and showed everyone.
Her eyes were puffy, you could tell she had been crying.
She began talking,
" So umm hi, I just want to say a few things that only a few people know about, I know I will need to eventually say it so I'm going to say it now. I don't want anyone's pity, ok.
So a while ago I was in a toxic
r-relationship with a g-girl, I-I found out she was c-cheating on me. So I c-called her out on i-it and she s-stabbed me, some of the s-songs I have written is about h-her and also other p-people. I'm s-saying this because I-I got asked a question in an i-interview today.
T-Thank you for l-listening, I love you all, b-bye."
She was broken, you could see her eyes were glossy at the end and she was stuttering a lot.
She was about to cry. I need to find her.
It then hit me, the hills.
I grabbed my car keys and jumped into my car and drove to the hills.
As I arrived, she was stood at the very edge of the cliff. It scared me how close she was to the edge, I knew what she was thinking, I need to stop her.

Y/n's pov
This it how it ends, I'm going to jump off the cliff.
I began to lean forwards but out of nowhere strong arms wrapped around me and pulled me away from the cliff edge. I already knew who it was due to the strong scent of vanilla.
I just cryed. She held me so close to her, I felt a tear fall from her cheek. She was crying too.
I then heard her whisper,
"I'm here love, I'm so sorry."
I pulled away and told her,
"It's not your fault Bil."
We stayed cuddling for ages.

Billies pov
I then heard her let out a gentle snore, she had fell asleep.
So I picked her up and put her in my car, I then grabbed her car keys and locked her car. I jumped back into my car and drove back to the house, as I walked into the house everyone came running to me. I shushed them and took y/n to her room and changed her into an oversized shirt and some shorts.I then laid her on her bed and pulled the covers over her.
I then walked out of her room and downstairs, everyone just bombarded me with questions.
I had enough.
I bursted into tears.
Everyone then ran towards me and hugged me. I then whispered,
"She tried to jump off a goddamn cliff."
Everyone looked at me and started crying.