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hope.

warning: talking about existential crisis.

harry is always grateful for everything.

for his friends, family, ex-bestfriends, ex-girlfriends and most importantly, his fans.

he owes them everything. he knows he wouldn’t be anywhere he is right now, without the constant love and support from them. they radiate so much of love, happiness and warmth to his life.

so, obviously, he is very grateful and thankful to them.

but when it comes to himself, he is self conscious. he doubts his own worth. 

does he really deserve all the constant support and all the heartwarming love? is he worth of all of it? is he worthy of the constant attention he receives despite being a little bit of narcissist? 

all these thoughts haunting him. painful thoughts invading his peaceful slumber of the lonely night after lying in the middle of the night.

just one of those nights where he lies awake in the middle of the night, where all the people and lovers are quietly dreaming in their peaceful sleep.

but on the serious note, is he really worthy of all the wonderful opportunities in his doorstep, waiting to be acknowledged?

he sighs, he is tired and scared.

he is scared of all the mistakes, regrets, choices and these lonely nights where his own thoughts, scares him.

he is afraid. afraid of commitment, afraid of disappointing others, mostly, afraid of love.

he is afraid of love because he was always a victim. a victim who always has to suffer the consequences of other’s as well as his own mistakes too. the ones who he holds dearly to his fragile heart, always leave him to be, all alone.

but, he knows that, without pain, we wouldn’t know the pleasure of joy.

yes, he is tired and helpless. his heart is fragile. but he has hope.

hope that everything in the end will make sense. hope that can bring a warmth in nights like this.

after all, to live without hope is to cease to live, right? maybe one day, he has hope that he will appreciate his worth.

his partner would make him feel like bundle of sunshine in the darkest of days. maybe one day, he has hope that he will conquer all his fears and win the battle he is still fighting with himself.

until then, he must have hope and against all odds, all logic, he still hopes.

for then, he will continue to be grateful for what he has and be thankful for everything he has. be kind to all the people he come across with for he doesn’t know the battles, they have fought or still fighting.

he will be grateful, thankful, patient and will treat people with kindness for he know kindness has no substitute.