Mark, Jackson & I // markson

S3 E5

JB took a few running steps towards me and landed his hand on my shoulder.

"Y/N... are you okay?", he quietly asked and looked at Jinyoung who followed the lead and asked the same question from Mark.

I didn't even know how to reply.

We all stayed quiet and watched how Jackson did his performance, making the crowd scream his name.

All of us forgot the fact that Jackson was living in LA. We were focusing on the tour too much to think such thing.

After half an hour or something, Jackson thanked the audience and went to the other side of the backstage. I sighed deeply and flinched when JB clapped his hands loudly a couple of times.

"Okay guys, don't let this distract us. Let's go on the stage and do our best! We can greet Jackson later if he stays around... but now I need you to focus on this, hmm?", the leader tried to bring back the nice mood, which was never actually gone.

Everyone was actually excited to see Jackson's face after all these years. Except for me and Mark... I guess.

All the boys agreed to JB's encouraging words and soon they were already heading to the stage.

Mark was being the last one to enter, and he started hesitating. Others were already in their positions and Mark started feeling bad. He covered his face with his hands and turned to look at me for the last time.

"Y/N I don't know if I can do this I-"

"Shhh", I took him into my embrace and hugged him tight before continuing:
"You'll be okay. Just let the music guide you. Focus on rapping and dancing. And afterwards we'll figure this out. Okay? I love you so much", I gave him a little smile.

He nodded slowly, and just before he entered the stage he turned around to whisper:
"I really missed him".

And I admit to myself I felt the same. I was focusing on the show for the first couple of songs, but then my mind started to wander around everywhere. All the way back to the car accident. The accident happened a little over two years ago, and that's when I forgot Mark.
Nowadays the things remained the same. I lost a few years of my memory, my life... but I fell in love with Mark again. And out of love with Jackson. Or did I?

Every time I started thinking about the accident, it gave me an headache. I wish I could just forget the whole thing, although it was a big thing in the past.

I shook my head and tried to come back to reality once again, trying to pay attention to the concert. A few more songs left.

I turned to check the time, and that's when I saw Jackson walking straight to me. And I just stared at him. Not knowing what to think or feel or do. He came to me with a beautiful little smile.

I gulped at watched how he looked at me from head to toes quickly before opening his mouth:
"Hey you. Long time no see", he said and leaned forward to hug me.

I felt so bad. I felt like crying. I felt so guilty after all the words I said to him the last time we saw each other. I felt like crap.

"Yeah... long time no see", I said so quietly he could barely hear the answer.

I slowly wrapped my arms around him and tried to hold back my tears. As I placed my head on his shoulder and inhaled the familiar scent, it was too hard to keep pushing all my feelings away.

The hug felt like an eternity, even though it only took a few seconds before he stepped back.

"You look amazing. How you've been?", he smiled. How can he be so damn calm?

"I- I'm okay. Me and Mark moved out from the old house and got a new one near the beach. He's been busy with work like always. I spend my days mostly alone. You know how it is..", I awkwardly smiled and wiped a hair strand away from my face.

"Haha yeah. I remember how it was... I've been pretty busy too! Going solo is feeling more tiring than being in the group", he shrugged his shoulders.

"I bet. But you're doing great! You look healthy. And I know you'll get far! You're strong and competitive", I smiled.

"You know me too well", he smirked and looked at his feet.

"JACKSON!!!", Youngjae screamed and ran towards him, all the other members right behind him.

"Ahahahaa hey guys!!", Jackson smiled wide and started hugging his ex group members one by one. Mark stayed at the back a little, frozen.
He just stared at Jackson greeting his friends. Finally he was done hugging the others and locked his eyes with Mark.

He gave him a small smile, saying: "Hi Markie".

BamBam looked around and quickly yelled everyone away from the spot, giving us three some space. I was still so confused I couldn't even walk to Mark and hold his hand.

When there were only the three of us left, Jackson started walking towards Mark. I think he gasped a little. A single tear rolled down against Mark's cheek when Jackson stopped in front of him, opening his hands for a hug. Mark burst into tears and hugged Jackson super tight.

"I'm so happy to see you after all these years", Mark was able to say between crying. Jackson just patted his back and said: "I know. Same here".

The guys held each other for a long moment before finally breaking the hug. Jackson wiped off the tears from Mark's face when he finally got himself together.

"You guys wanna go for a dinner to catch up?", Jackson asked and looked at the both of us.

————————————————————————

Hello friends!
After a long ass time I'm finally updating the series. I had a huge writers block, I moved away from my parents and started a new school.
So a lot of things are going on!

I hope you guys are doing well.

Xoxo, A