Mark, Jackson & I // markson

S2 E9

I heard a light knock against the door. I let the water run through my face, taking my tears with it before saying: "Come in".

The door opened slowly and Mark stepped inside, one hand behind his neck, his gaze on the floor. "Are you okay Y/N?", he quietly asked.

"I'm not sure. I'm confused", I replied and started shampooing my hair. There was a silent moment.

"Don't worry about Jacks, he's been very stressed in the past couple of days. He just wants that everything goes well", he said.

"I know. These days are stressful for all of us. I just want to go to bed", I replied and turned off the shower, reaching for my towel. Mark gave it to me while looking down.

"Okay. I'll get my things and sleep on the couch again", he said and started walking away.

"No wait!", I stopped him and continued: "Please come and sleep next to us okay? I want to sleep in the middle. I think I'm ready", I blushed and gave him a little smile. Mark's eyes started sparkling and a wide smile appeared to his face.

"Okay then", he said and left the bathroom.

I put my head in my hands and groaned softly as another element of the dream came back to me: Mark. How I used to love Mark. How I felt when he looked at me. When he touched my hand. When he held my waist. When he kissed my lips.

Only one thing was clear to me; I wanted to go back. I wanted to be with the both of them again. I wanted to return to my old life. In order to be able to do that, I'd have to remember, right? But if I can't... I just have to let myself fall in love with Mark again. Although I won't complain; falling in love is the best feeling ever...
But falling out of love can be painful.

I walked out of the bathroom to our shared bedroom. I saw Mark and Jackson sitting on the bed and changing their clothes to pjs. I followed the lead.

"Y/N I-", Jackson started speaking and I shook my head to him.

"Don't. It's okay. Let's just sleep now", I answered and crawled into the bed, pulling the blanket over my body and getting comfortable in the middle of the bed.

Jackson didn't say anything back, he just collapsed next to me while Mark did the same.

"Good night", Mark whispered.

"Sleep tight", I whispered back.

"Don't let ... me bite", Jackson chuckled and I hit his shoulder while laughing, before falling asleep.

The next morning:
I woke up with my legs tangled up with Mark's. Jackson was almost fully on top of me, sleeping heavily. I turned my head to see the alarm on the nightstand.

The alarm would start ringing in three, two, one.. BZZZZ

And suddenly Jackson flinched and hit his head to my chin. "OUTCH!", I whined and rubbed my chin. Mark turned off the alarm and Jackson looked at me grinning.

"I'm sorry", he whispered and patted my head before getting up the bed.

"Mark we gotta go to practice, get your ass up", he yelled and rushed out of the room.

"Hghh five more minutes", Mark groaned and put his hand over my body. I was staying still. It took a minute till he lift his head up and looked at me.

"I- I'm sorry I didn't mean to-", he started and was going to take his hand off me.

"No don't", I took the hand and put it back to where it was. "This is good", whispered. I was facing him, his face only a few inches away from mine. I saw how his cheeks started turning red slowly. I bet I was blushing too.

"Y/N?", he whispered.

"Mark?", I replied.

"Can I kiss you?", he closed his eyes.

"Yes please", I smiled and after a while I felt his lips against mine.

The kiss was soft and quick. He pulled back a little, just to rest his forehead against mine. I smiled like crazy.

"Do that again", I giggled a little.

I felt like I was a teenager again and having my very first kiss. All the butterflies inside my stomach and my cheeks burning red.

Mark responded by crashing his lips onto mine again, holding my head with his both hands. I gently grabbed his waist and climbed on top of him, making sure he wouldn't stop. I was sitting on top of him, my hands either side of him. His hands traveled from my hair to my waist. The kiss was passionate.

After a moment I had to pull back to get some air. The both of us were breathing heavily. "Mark?", I whispered and looked him in the eyes.

"Yeah?", he smiled and caressed my hair.

"I.. I love you", I said quietly.

"Mark are you coming-", Jackson walked into the room. I automatically got off Mark's lap as quickly as I could and placed myself next to him. I felt embarrassed. Jackson started laughing a little.

"Why are you acting like that? It's not like you're cheating on me or anything", he said while walking away and continued: "Mark seriously, we're gonna be late!"

Mark rubbed his eyes and laughed a little.
"I gotta go Y/N", he pecked my lips one more time before getting up.

"Have fun at practice!", I shouted before he ran off the room and closed the bedroom door.

I sat up and covered my face.
Did that just happen? And he didn't even-

My thoughts stopped when the door opened again.

"I love you too Y/N. I'll see you tonight", Mark said smiling and left the room.

I fell to my back, laughed and kicked the air like a little child.

This was probably the best feeling ever.