The heart that I thought was mine

Chapter 6

The alarm started ringing loudly around the apartment. Jungkook started to stir at the sound, stretching his arms and leaning over the bed to turn off the alarm. Rubbing his eyes slightly to get used to the sunlight peeking through the curtains hitting on his face. He looked at the empty side of the bed, sighing before getting up and putting on his slippers.

He was now used to seeing the once filled in spot on the bed, being now empty and cold. He never really needed an alarm to wake him up because he Areum would play that role. She would always make sure he would be ready on time for work and so now he had to get used to the change. He was still grieving the loss of his lover and it was still hard to carry on his days but he had to adapt now.

This was the first time in a week or so that he was going back to his office. He wasn't worried about how it was going because he knew Namjoon would take care of everything during his absence. Today he was ready. Ready to fulfill the dream Areum had of building a hospital for kids.

Walking towards the bathroom he turned on the water of the sink, taking his toothbrush and squeezing out the toothpaste. Once he was done brushing his teeth, he took a close look at his reflection seeing someone far different from the Jungkook of before. He now had a heavy beard and looking at himself after a long time made him wonder how he let himself go in every sense.

Reaching out for his razor and shaving cream ready to get rid of this grown beard. He put some of the shaving cream in his hand applying it on his face in a circling motion. Razor in hand he started shaving then finally rinsing it all when done. He took a towel and dry patted his now wet face.

He looked content of the result and jumped in the shower, removing his clothes before doing so. The hot water hitting his back relaxed his sore muscles from sleeping wherever there was a free space. Whether it was on the floor, couch even leaned on the furniture. His bed only brought him nightmares with the lack of warmth that was normally there.

Soon enough he finished everything, towel around his waist going towards his closet to put on the clothes for today. He was adjusting his collar as he reached out to take a tie only to stop mid way. He didn't know how to put on a tie. Areum would do it for him every time and he took the habit of asking her every morning. Actually he didn't even have to ask as she would automatically come to him with a tie in hand. He still took one putting it in his briefcase thinking that someone at the office could help him.

Taking one last look at himself through the mirror he then walked to the kitchen trying to find something to eat before leaving but everything was empty. He made a note to himself that after he finished his work he should make a trip to the grocery store. For now buying breakfast outside would do.

He put on his shoes and stepped outside locking the door behind him. He clicked on the elevator button waiting for it to open its doors. As it dinged he stepped in going down to the parking lot of the building to get to his car. He just stepped inside settling everything and turned the car on when his phone started ringing.

On the screen "Yoongi hyung" was written. He wasn't sure if he was ready to talk to him. Honestly speaking after that day when he lost his temper and almost hit his hyung he didn't know how he could even face Yoongi. He knew that Yoongi wouldn't hate him but he hated himself for even going that far. Taking in a deep breath he clicked the green call button and put the phone on speaker

"Hello"

"Jungkook? you don't know how happy I am to hear your voice. How are you? Wait that's a stupid question just forget it I'm glad that you answered my call we were all so worried. I was so worried..."

"Sorry hyung I..."

"No don't say sorry kid, you needed this time alone. You needed to take some time away from all of this. Don't be sorry hyung is not mad" the tears were threatening to spill as Jungkook tried to keep his composure. Yoongi heard the sniffles and the younger boy didn't have to say anything that the weight that was bothering him was lifted in an instant.