Dreamer

Maybe?

They say that if you have a crush someone for more than 8 months your in love. That's not being in a relationship. When your crave them, and your whole body aches from missing them or wanted them you're in love. It only happends to a few of us if were lucky. I guess I'm just really lucky then.. It was Friday, they're was a dance tonight I wasn't planning on going but at the last second Emma asked if we could go, I said sure. Hoping to see Caleb there Emma and I made sure I looked perfect. The whole night I wanted him to be here with me, it ached watching him dance with her and kiss her. But I never once saw him look at her the way he did with me.. I thought that ment something but apprently not.. seconds after her lips came crashing onto his. I tried so hard to not let it bother me that he was with her, but it did I was upset. Everyone was telling me to just ignore them so I tried. I looked to my right and found him standing there looking at me, he said something but I couldn't hear him, before I could say anything he walked away. I wonder what he said... The slow songs just bothered me because Sabrina would make sure that I could see them at all times. Around the end of the dance I was waiting to talk to a friend she was with her boyfriend and I was saying bye. All the sudden Caleb comes up and puts his arm around her boyfriend and jokingly I put my arm around hers, then Caleb picked out the gum from his mouth and tried to rub spit on me, chasing me around laughing. It was so cute but I didn't want his spit on me so I was laugh yelling stop. When he finally stopped he have me that smirk and those eyes were just, uh.
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When Emma and I got back to my house, she tried to convince me that he liked me. I texted him and he answerd so I asked to play truth or dare, he said ok and I asked "do you like anyone else other than Sabrina.."
"No"
"Okay your turn" and he never answerd after that. I was a little upset after that but I didn't let it bother me, so Emma and I watched 2 movies off Netlix. Near the end of the second movie Emma was falling asleep so we headed to bed.

I woke up before her and I get up to pee. When she got up we headed upstairs for breakfast, the smell of cinnamon buns filled the house. My mom and sister have put them in the oven for us. We eat and think of ideas what to do today, we end up watching another movie. "you look really upset B, message him"
"I'm fine really, but I will message him" I say with a smile.
"Honesly though B you look really upset like just the look on your face, you sure your ok?" she says concerned.
"Yes I'm fine"
When the movie ends Emma leaves and I'm stuck cleaning my room. Halfway done my mind wanders and thoughts fill my head. maybe your not enough, maybe he doesn't want you, maybe he knows you like him so he's teasing you. I try to clear the thoughts out of my head when another maybe crawls back in my head. maybe he likes you but can't do anything about it..

That maybe haunts me for a while. I need to know if he likes me or not, it's burning a hole in me not knowing, even though he said he doesn't like anyone else I still need to find out. So maybe he does or maybe he doesn't, starting Monday I'll try and find out this maybe.