Dreamer

Theres this boy...

When he touched me, this rush came running through me making me feel like I was ontop of the world. But it only lasted a few seconds, when he touches me all I want is for his hands to stay on me.

A few minutes pass and were just looking at each other, just staring at the details in the others face. Lips, eyes, every curve and crease. The little smile we share and look away. After school I finally get the courage to text him, we talk and talk for hours on end, looking up at what time it is I'm surprised it's 1:30am holy crap!

The next few days, turn into weeks and we text everyday for hours. I don't even know how many days/weeks it's been like this. All I know is I like it whatever it is. I tell him everything, even things I've never told anyone, things my best friend even doesn't know. I told him about my past, the part where I've been trying to hide and it keeps crawling back in trying to become the present. Ana as in anorexic, yes I was anorexic I had an eating disorder because I thought I was fat. Grade 5, everyone was so skinny and small, I am the tall girl way taller then everyone. I started hearing people talking about "oh she's lost weight she looks good" and I thought maybe if I lost weight people would say I looked good. I literally told him everything, no one knows about any of this and now he knows. He promised me that he wouldn't tell anyone it was between him and me. I told him that everyone leaves cause they do, who doesn't now a days? He said he would never hurt me and he would always be here, somehow I believed every word he said. I trusted him with everything and anything. He listened to everything I had to say and didnt judge a thing. This also went on for days, weeks and maybe even a month or so, I loved having someone I could tell anything, and having a bestfriend who I liked, like liked.

March 11th, it's a Wednesday. It's now a very special wednesday, he touches me slightly making that rush of feeling ontop of the world. We laugh and talk and get closer each time. I start to notice that everytime he looks at me his eyes slowly so softly drift to my lips, he bites his. I smile.

We talk like usual and this time I tell him that I like him, all those thing I told him about the guy I liked and now he knows it's him. I slowly type "ok, so the guy I like is you..." Takes me a few seconds but I send it. *beep* he answerd "good, cause the girl is you." He likes me back! I scream "OMFG HE LIKES ME!!" We talk and talk, this time talking about our dreams and where we want to live and go. He's still dating Sabrina though.

We ended up having a thing. I loved it. Sabrina ended up breaking up with him for some stupid reason, she regretted it though. but who wouldn't he's just such a understanding person, he's so sweet and plus he's really attractive. I waited a bit before everyone convinced me to ask him out.. I was about to but didn't he heard about it and said to wait cause he doesn't want to seem like a player. we kept on talking doing whatever it was we were doing. Then I had to ask that one thing. This thing ruined everything, or did it?