Forever & Always (Austin mahone)

Chapter 23

Sky pov:
Ok so today is the day me Sarah and Maddie go dress shopping for the 'big day'. Anastasia , Aiesha and Angel were being daddy's little girls so they stayed with Austin and the boys.
Right now I'm in the car waiting for this traffic to hurry up. I'm anxious and when I'm anxious I get nervous and when I'm nervous I get impatient. If your in the car when I'm anxious I suggest you lock the door and put your seat belts on.

*skip journey to wedding dress shop*

In the changing room

I looked at myself in the mirror, instantly my self esteem dropped in a heart beat as I look at a insecure young lady with stretch marks imprinted on her stomach in her underwear , I sighed at the sight .I blocked my emotion not wanting to ruin my mood and slowly slid in the dress I chosen for the 'big day'. The dress complimented my skin perfectly as I look into the mirror again. I stood there confused , unsure weather I liked it or not and wondering if I was able to show this not just to Austin but everyone at the wedding and feel good wearing it?
I walked out the changing room to the we're the girl were sitting.
They gasp in shock .
"That bad"I say nervous biting my bottom lip
"Nononono ...we're gasping because you look so gorgeous I envy you right now ,you just had 3 children not that long ago and you look like a sex goddess ...you look beautiful "Sarah says looking in amazement I blushed at her comment
"If I was Austin I would ... I don't even know what I would do but let's just say I'll be calling for a babysitter so we can do some kinky shi-"
"Ok enough of that dirty mouth of yours"Sarah says as she silences Maddie by covering her mouth
I giggle at maddies inappropriate language
And walk back to the changing room to get changed once again.
As I finish getting dressed my lungs start to hurt I clutch on to the door knob trying to stop the agony.

"Are you ok in there sky?" Maddie asked as she presses herself against the door while slightly knocking
"I'm fine ...I'm nearly ready just give me a couple minutes"
"ok ...we'll we will wait by the cash till waiting for you " she says not surely convinced by the response I gave her
I straighten myself up and bring the dress ready to pay .

*on the way to the house*
Maddie is driving because we agreed I could drive us there and she'll drive us back.
We were nearly there and then suddenly Maddie stops the car.
I nearly bashed my head off the window.
"WHAT THE FUCK MADDIE!" I said getting annoyed
"Where not going anywhere until you tell us!" she says in a calm voice
i scrunch up my noses and furrow my eyebrows I confusion
"She's talking about what happened in the changing rooms" Sarah says with a worried voice
"And don't lie to us and say your fine... I can tell when your lying ...we just want to know if our best friend is ok we're really protective over you...we love you sky" Maddie says while playfully but gently punching me slightly on my arm as her eyes grew watery
I've just discovered I'm diagnosed with cancer next week is my first chemotherapy. I'm nervous ....I'm terrified but keep I brave face on not to get upset in front of the children ...I'm planning on telling them soon. Austin knows and encourages me to tell them and to tell Alex ...it's gonna be hard to break it down to them especially Alex because I'm all he's got. I'm planning on telling Alex tomorrow to mine and Alex secret place where mom and dad used to take us when they were alive.

"I've just had this pain by my lungs ...it hurts now and then" I say looking somewhere else but maddies eyes if I see hear cry I'm going to end up crying and I don't want that because I'm trying to stay positive for everyone's sake.
I hear sniffles and I can't help but look up.
I see tears roll down maddies cheek , her eyes going blood shot
"Please...mads don't cry ... I'll be fine nothing bad going to happen to me"i say trying not to cry as I hold on to her hand
"Mads ... you need to stay strong ... for sky ...she needs us right now"Sarah croaks out as a tear threatens to auld down her cheek
"Ok ...I'm fine I'm just worried about you ...your like my little sis I need you ...we need you"she says with sadness in her eyes as teardrops trickle down her face
"Stop crying or I'm going to cry" I say looking towards the window
"Anyway enough with the crying let's go home " I say changing the subject
Maddie got my message , knowing I didn't want to talk about the subject and ended up starting the car.

*back at home*

"So when are you going to tell Alex... he deserves to know he's your brother it's going to break he's heart if you don't tell him soon"Austin whispers as we all sit around on the couch together as we watch film of Netflix
"I'm going to tell him tomorrow don't worry I promise I will" I say tubing my thumb on he's hand and then kissing he's cheek
I look up at him and at the side of he's eye it's glossy
I nudge him gently so I can get him to look at me
Soon a teardrop slowly drops down he's face
"Don't cry babe I'll be ok" I whisper
He gets up to go to the kitchen and whips he's eyes
Luckily it's dark so know one could see him cry
Crying is he's weakness that's what we have in common
He never cries , it has to be something really bad for Austin to cry
He hate seeing people cry because it sets me off
I look to my left and see Alex cuddle up with Sarah
Them two are so cute , it's going to be hard when I say goodbye for the last time if it is that serious.
I look to my right and see Maddie is cuddled up with Robert ....yes Robert and Maddie are going out he didn't want to go out with her straight away he had to get the heads up from Austin first as she was Austin's girlfriend 😶don't remind me
Zach was cuddled up with he's girlfriend hailee she's just like us she's really sweet and them two are adorable they go everywhere together there like Alex and Sarah and me and Luke when we first got together and also me and Austin.

I couldn't stand it no more I had to get some air
I jumped off the couch ,went towards the kitchen side to grab my keys and exited the house.

I went to place where I need time to think

*arrived to destination*

"Hello...Luke I've ...I've got cancer ...I'll be joining you soon ...up there ...we can be happy again ...I don't want to leave yet but I guess my journey comes to an end here ...I hope your proud of your little angel ...because I am ...I'm proud of all three ...I'll miss all of them but Alex can look after them like their he's own ...he's always wanted a family of he's own ,I guess he'll be getting that soon" I said as a tear slid down my cheek
"WHY ME!"I scream to the sky , I crawl up against  Luke's grave stone and begin to cry
I feel two strong arms wrap around me they felt ice cold
I soon recognised the arms that are wrapped around me
"It's ok baby"he whispered in my ears
" ...Luke ... you finally came back" I say as I look deep in he's eyes
"I'm here now baby ...I love you ... but your unconscious ...
you have to go back you have children that love you and need a mommy ...I've been watching you ...all of you ...my baby girls have grown up so fast...especially angel , I'm glad she visits ,just know I'll always be here when you need me most ...your gonna be fine...stay strong you can fight this ...i have to go now but I love you" Luke says
"I love you too"i say with a tear drop slowly sliding down  my cheek
I kissed him one last time , he felt ice cold he fades into the distance

Then it goes black

"Sky...sky..wake up" a familiar voice says shaking me
"Austin ...is that you"
"Yes sky , why did you go out in the freezing cold" Austin says with concern
"I had to talk to someone"i said looking up into he's hazel orbs "I love you , you know that " I continued
"I know and I love you too" he says with a smile
"To the moon and back" we say unison
We just laugh then get up heading back to the car
I look up to the sky and see a cloud that looks like Luke
'thank you' I mime up to the sky

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