Secrets (l.s)

CHAPTER 13 ~ THE CONFESSION

AN/ My mom thinks I'm doing school work but actually I'm writing this oops (hi)  lol anyways enjoy!

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Harry Styles 

After Zayn ate and tried to get me to eat some, we got back in the car. I had a little bit of his eggs but I couldn't eat much, only a few bites. Which he said he was proud of me for which was really sweet. 

I really want to go back to our place because I am craving my blade but I don't want to see Louis. 

"Hey Z?" I ask him while he starts up the car.

"What's up?" He says back while looking over to me wrapped up in a blanket.

"Is Louis still at our place?" I ask him with uncertainty.

"Uh yeah, I think so. He might be out on a run though. What even happened between you guys? I heard him crying all of last night in his room." He says.

My heart broke at his words. I didn't know Louis would cry over this. That doesn't even make sense. Louis doesn't even like me in that way. Right?

"Um we just got in a fight over something." I say because I didn't want to say too much.

"Haz I'm your best friend. You can tell me what happened. I won't tell Li or Ni I promise. You don't have to tell me, I'm not forcing you. It just feels good to get this off of your chest sometimes." He says to me.

I sigh, I think it would be good to tell him but I don't know. He may think I'm weird for liking my best friend. But I trust him. 

"So, I like Louis. In like that way. I have for many years. And we have kissed 2 times. Yesterday was the second time. The first time he said he shouldn't have done it and that he is straight and with Eleanor. He said the exact same thing last night. So I was angry and flipped out on him. He can't keep hurting me by doing this. And I understand he may be figuring out his sexuality or something but he can't keep using me for that." I say the fastest i've ever said something. 

Zayn looks at me with wide eyes. 

"I'm sorry I shouldn't-" I start but he cuts me off.

"No no it's okay Haz I just needed a little time to process." He pauses before starting to talk again. "You are completely right in this situation. He can't keep using you for that and you had every right to flip out on him. He was in the wrong. And I'm sorry that he didn't realize that. I hope that he apologizes to you and figures out he was in the wrong." 

"Thanks Z. I just really like him and I don't want to lose him because of this, especially as a friend." I say starting to tear up. 

"Hey hey, you aren't going to lose him okay? He is your best friend. You guys will work this out. I know you will. He will finally realize how much of an ass he is and apologize. I promise." Zayn says while rubbing a comforting hand on my back and smiling at me. 

"Okay. Thank you Zayn. It felt nice to get that off my chest. I really don't deserve you." And I meant it. I really don't deserve him. 

"Of course bebe. Want to go back now? We can avoid him until you or him feel it's good to talk. Does that sound good?" He asks me in a comforting voice. 

"Yeah okay." I respond nodding.

The drive was a little over an hour and we spent the time talking about tour and listening to Fleetwood Mack and The 1975. Talking about tour was a little stressful and I think Zayn realized that because he quickly changed the topic and then put music on.

We arrive back at our place around 11 in the morning. I noticed that one out of the two cars is missing. We are in one of the cars so where is the other one?

We walk into the house and Liam is in the kitchen eating eggs and bacon and on his phone while Niall is face down on the floor slowly chewing, what I'm guessing is bacon.

I shake my head at Niall and I take off my coat and put it on one of the chairs. 

"Harry! You're back, that's good. How are you? Are you okay? What happened?" Liam yells at me while running over to hug me. I hug him back and widen my eyes at is bluntness.

"Whoa whoa whoa slow down there Liam I just got back" I say to him with a little laugh.

"I'm sorry you were just gone for a really long time and you scared us." Liam says stepping back from the hug.

Niall gave a groan from the ground which sounded like he was agreeing with Liam. 

"No it's okay, I'm fine." I respond to Liam with a nod.

"Okay, just making sure." He says.

"Niall get up off the ground." Zayn says after giving Liam a kiss.

"No." He says very shortly and sounding very tired. 

"Why is he even on the ground?" I ask Liam.

"He decided it would be a good idea to get pissed last night and I dragged him out of bed this morning.  He is not very happy." He says in response.

I nod my head and sit down on the couch. I was so tired. I din't sleep well last night. I slept on a park bench for gods sake. My back and neck hurt intensely.

All the boys sit down with me after eating their breakfast. We talk for a little while about what we are going to do for the rest of our time here. 

"Haz why don't you go take a nap, you seem really tired." Zayn says to me while sitting on Liam's lap.

I look over to him and nod my head. That might be helpful to be honest. 

I walk over to my room and change into more comfortable clothes since I was still in the ones I wore yesterday. 

I plug my phone in and flop on the bed getting under the covers. I quickly fall into a deep, well needed sleep. 

"No no please stop!" I yell at him with anger and fear in my voice. 

"This is what you get for disobeying me."  He yells with just as much anger in his voice as in his body movements. 

"I didn't do anything please stop dad." I say in between sobs. 

"You told someone, what did I tell you not to do Harold!? I told you not to tell anyone so this is your punishment. Sit still you slut." He says with frustration while slamming harder into me.   

"No dad that hurts please stop" I say while tears run down my cheeks. 

"Sit fucking still" He says after slapping me across the face. 

"Please dad!" I yell. 

"Stop please" I say crying even harder than before.

"You're so fucking tight." He says and I cry even harder, if that is possible.

"Please-" 

"Harry! Harry wake up!"

I wake up with a jolt from someone shaking me. I shrivel back away from him. He was the last person I wanted to see right now. 

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Sorry this was short and ended on a cliff hanger, also sorry it took me forever to write I've just been really busy with catching up on school work.

I just wanted to get this chapter out there because I have an idea for a new book that I REALLY wanna write so I'm gonna publish the first chapter before I publish another one of these probably so be on the look out for that. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I love you!

- avery :)