The Letters {Tubbo X Fem!Reader}

💌𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 26

"I need to see you again"

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All I did was stare up at my ceiling. I feel so unmotivated today. Unlike other days, at least I have a reason to get up in the morning. But now... I feel like nothing else matters anymore.

I don't matter. Crescent doesn't matter. U/N doesn't matter.

I feel like nothing. Just an out of place entity on this earth. A spectator.

I don't want to get up today...

...But I need to get up. 

I have to stream today. That's really the only motivation I have anymore. The only reason I really get up anymore is because of youtube and twitch. I have to stream on U/N's twitch.... I promised everyone that I--... she would.
I can't let them down. I can't...

"Don't even think about it" Hiria suddenly says

My eyes narrowed, eyeing up Hiria who was just sat in the corner on the floor, my f/c guitar in hand "...and why are you still here? I thought you were going home after mcc" I questioned her

I really thought she'd be home by now. After MCC, I really thought she would be... But she wasn't. She stayed with me for this long- and my family don't seem to mind it that much... Which is really questionable...

I get it- she's one of my best friends... Someone I trust a lot...
But why the hell would my family take her in without a second thought? I guess it's because she pays for her portion of our house bills when she stays over...

Hiria places the guitar back into it's stand and stands up "...And as I said a million times. I'm staying here because I don't want to leave you alone with those nasty thoughts you have" Hiria said, walking over to jump and fill in the left over space on the bed next to me

"Even with these thoughts. I can't just stay like this..." I muttered, sitting up "I have things to do..."

Hiria sat up too.

"You don't have to do anything today! Just a little break... You need a break from other people for at least a day" Hiria states "If not for me, for everyone else that cares so much about you. Your other friends, your family... They all see you're stressed..."

I let out a slight sigh of annoyance. She was right. I knew she was. And I always hated when she was right since I cant fight back when it comes to her logic... No matter how hard I try.

"Fine..." I murmur "But I promised a stream on U/N's channel at eight"

"Well, I can do it! I still have that voice changer and I can just download and hook it to your PC for me to use. It's not really that hard of a thing to do if you think about it" Hiria mentions

"...What about the face cam? I always have that on when I'm streaming as U/N" I ask her

"That's an easy bullet to dodge..! Maybe this stream you wont..! Just like that stream you did that night... I'll promise you that I'll stream as you, minus the face cam because I cannot match your beauty~" Hiria says

"You mean U/N's beauty..." I mutter back

"Hey, hey, hey! U/N would be nothing without you..! Now, Kitten. My sweet, sweet, darling kitten. You are beautiful" She says, planting a kiss on my nose

I backed up instantly and fell back down onto my bed, earning a smirk and chuckle from Hiria. She then hops over me and walks over to take a seat down at my PC.

"You can do whatever you want today. Scroll through twitter or instagram, watch youtube or netflix, do anything..!! I'll handle your stream for today..! Kay?" Hiria says

I forced a nod and decided to go onto my-- erm... U/N's phone and scroll through messages.

Messages from friends. Asking if I'm okay, them sending memes or just saying a simple 'hello'.

I replied to each one, hearting a few others, then after doing so I checked my other phone. The phone I own. And I saw a message from... Toby out of all people.

❤Toby❤

❤Toby❤:
Hey! Y/N!
I know its weird for me to be asking you after all these years and suddenly out of the blue. But do you think we can meet up any time soon?
I know these times are weird for me asking to meet up, but I really want to see you again! :D

I replied instantly.

:You
Yes! YES! A thousand times yes! I would love to see you again! It's been so longg! And- uhh. Hey! How about on a weekend? I think it would be the perfect time to meet up! :)

❤Toby❤:
Oh! Yeah! That sounds perfect! :D

:You
How about I go to your house? Since you still live at the same place :P

❤Toby❤:
Yeah!

❤Toby❤:
Wow, I'm actually really excited to see you again after all this time! I want us to catch up, maybe go to some of the places we use to go to a lot as kids?
Depending if we have the time

:You
That would be great!! :)

:You
Well, we can discuss this more at a later date.
 I guess I'll see you then!

❤Toby❤:
See you! :D

And after the small conversation we had. I felt slightly happier.

I was going to meet my childhood friend again... After all these years..!! After- six or seven years? Man... This is going to be odd.

I told Hiria about it and she offered to go with me to the house, but I denied her. 

People already know what Hiria looks like- and she's pretty famous to an extent. And-- she would probably ride in on a limo because of the amount of cash she has.

Also- I want this time to be special. I want to see him again. Just the two of us in sight of one another.

But- even though I feel so excited, happy and overall down to meet him. Why do I feel like this is wrong? Why do I feel like it will go wrong on so many levels...?

Wait... How should I act around him? Around his family..?

Should I act like myself...? or should I act like... U/N..? Like all those years ago..?

No. He still likes me. He still likes me as a person. No matter how I act now... He... He should like me.

I continued my day, lazing about and thinking about Toby...