I'm being so mean to myself.
I functioned on three hours of sleep today. Went to bed around 2:30ish.
I feel guilty. Told myself no but impulse actions told me yes, when I knew very well, future me would have hoped I said no. In doing so I've just create an emotional mouse trap for myself.
I just feel shitty.
Today was fine. Besides the fact that I was extremely tired.
I did my scene in acting class and it got a few laughs. Acting in times like this really helps me. I love stepping into another character's life so I don't have to worry about my own for a split second.
Played guitar at church again today. First song was meh. I lost track and had to play by ear. Second song I was ready to strum all my worries away so I just fucking jammed. Not caring who was watching. Oh, but people were. "Saw you getting into it" etc. Made me laugh.
History was kinda amazing. I slept the entire time. Rushed through my worksheet since he posted the answer key by accident, then fell into a deep sleep. Kinda caught up. Not enough though.
Lunch was alright. For some reason I can't really remember it. Like at all. Honestly good because I was really not in the mood today so whatever was going on was probably shit.
Chemistry was better than usual. I did a worksheet with Henry. That kid. He's something else. I had to snap him back to reality at least 20 times. He would doze off and I'd be like "DUDE. CATCH UP TO ME YOU HAVE FIVE QUESTIONS TO ANSWER."
Latin was pretty fun, actually. Besides the fact I had to move seats. Oh well.
Juliana continues to pester Jack. It gets funnier by the day. She called Galilea crying yesterday saying me and Jack were being mean to her at rehearsal??? But it really surprised her that Jack was mean because I always am and it's my personality?? Bitch. What the fuck did I do. Sorry I don't want you to suck my dick. You have the entire school on standby. She pisses me off.
I'm really really hoping for a good weekend. This week has been stressful and mind warping. I have high hopes though. I don't know why, but I just feel like something good will happen.
That's all for today.
Have a great Friday tomorrow, me.
You deserve it.
