Today was okay. Then it wasn't.
Started off the day by just kind of laying around.
Javier came over. That was fun. Then Luke came over too. We reminisced on the good OLS days. That was a trip. Really fun and sentimental.
After that, Javier left and it was just me and Luke. We ended up meeting Peter at the taco truck in Hoover. Damn, those were good tacos.
Came back home after that with the two of them and we hung out for a bit. Had to go to work so kicked them out.
Work tonight was really stressful. Hated it honesty. Too many people tonight.
When I came home Javier ended up showing up again and we went for a swim for a bit. He's coming by tomorrow morning to get me and we're going on a trip up to Huntsville for the day. Hopefully that will get my mind off some stuff.
I think I'm honestly bipolar. One minute I'm happy, the next, sad as hell.
I'm so sad right now. It started around 11:30. Just got really sad. I tried to cry but I can't.
I hate not being able to cry.
I've been listening to sad music too.
There's no one to talk to right now. That's fine I guess. It's not like I need to pour shit out on anyone at the moment.
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"
I love that^
Had a bad dream last night. Still kind of upset about it. I love my brother so much. I miss G.
God, now I really want to cry. But I just can't. Why can't I cry. God. Why can't I fucking cry?
I wonder what my life has in store for the next couple days, weeks, months even.
I'm worried about the future.
Happiness is such a hard goal.
