She she said it was over,
They told her to give up,
She told herself to give up,
She was clean for almost three months,
She lost all hope of getting better,
She stopped eating and said it's normal,
Everyone does it,
No one told her she was slowly killing herself and this is almost the end,
She told herself this is the new beginning,
Of an old ending,
Everywhere she looked it was different than it was yesterday,
This was the new beginning of something old,
This was the beginning she was hoping for,
This was the beginning she wished would never happen,
The pain felt like someone pushing her under water,
But it was such a pleasure to feel pain,
It was such a pleasure to feel something just once more,
Just before it was gone again.
