the 8th member | BTS [under editing]

forty one

"y/n must be having fun right now, i'm so jealous I wish I could go with her." with a thin smile on his face, jungkook says as he leans his head on namjoon's shoulder. the leader of the group hums as he gently ran his fingers through jungkook's hair, at least it could make the younger feel a bit better. the leader knows very well that jungkook misses his parents and his home. homesick still hit them even though it's been years staying in the dorm.

"of course she is, she never been there before remember?"

jungkook nods his head before looking up at the older boy. it always feels good when any members start to play with his hair, feels like he's with his mom again. he just stares at namjoon's calm face. maybe namjoon feels the same as him, he must be missing his parents and his little sister as well.

"I miss my mom," the younger says as he sighs lowly.

the older boy keep playing with his hair, "I know "

"I'm sorry if I didn't do any mistakes in that performance, we might get a day off but now we have to stay at home and then go to practice instead." namjoon says apologetically. he knows that it was his fault, if not jungkook and jimin probably in busan right now. "it's not your fault joon."

hoseok says as he slowly walks towards both of them who casually resting on the couch, waiting for an another hour so they could go for an intense dance practice as what the head choreographer has told namjoon this morning. the leader startles as he feels hoseok rubbing his shoulder.

"you did great, I know you did so if any mistakes you've made during the performance is just a mistake everyone did mistakes." hoseok says gently, the leader has becomes a bit sensitive lately especially after what supreme boi has done to him. everyone might say that namjoon probably just mad at him.

it's different for hoseok since he could see how his best friend's action and emotion change gradually right after supreme boi left the group. for everyone, it might just a friend going away from you but for namjoon it's different it's a betrayal which he had countless of times already.

deep down, hoseok knew how hurt the leader could feels when someone mentioned about supreme boi. not only that, the poor leader has been crying in silent when he feels everything is way too much. suppressed cries in the bathroom at 3 a.m, hoseok has been hearing that a lot lately.

fortunately hoseok was beside him all the time. he needs support, hoseok will be there for namjoon. he doesn't want namjoon to feel alone.

"I'm sorry -"

"I don't want to hear any sorry from you joon." hoseok says, pulling the leader into his embrace which makes namjoon could easily beams his face on hoseok's torso. "that's right rapmon hyung, I can call my mom if I missed her so don't worry it's not your fault." the youngest out of them says reassuringly.

the leader hums softly, he didn't feel any better.

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namjoon slowly walks towards his bedroom before he feels someone is pulling him from behind, probably it's just jungkook playing around like usual, he thought. "namjoon-ah .."

the leader sighs softly before turning around since he already knew who's grabbing his arm. namjoon hums as he looks straight into hoseok's eyes and then push his hand away. he could tell that hoseok is worried about him but there is nothing to worry about actually. just another insecure day hit him.

"you okay?" the other male asks as he tries to grab namjoon's arm again but the younger by months quickly pulls away. "of course i'm okay ... why would I not be okay? totally fine." namjoon says simply.