𝚂𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚙𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 🌕✨

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"some people make you feel like home more than your home itself" _Selenophile

Wednesday... It was a tough day for her. Lots of things happened that made her feel like giving up. she could've hurt herself but she didn't do it.

that day she took her phone and texted him... Someone she met not long ago. He understood her and without him knowing he made her feel safe, made her feel like home...

Little did they know, he prevented her from hurting herself and she felt much better after talking with him.

The next day, she was grateful for everything he did. some things happened that did annoy her but she didn't give in to her thoughts instead she was smiling that she was having a conversation with him. It didn't matter what type of conversation they were having, she was thankful for it.

Time passed, it was already 4 am. everyone was asleep in her house it was quiet but her thoughts were screaming at her. she was exhausted as negative thoughts filled her mind. she didn't want to listen to them but it was getting so much to handle...

Tears rolled down her cheeks, she found herself holding a razor blade in her hand. staring at it she said to herself " 113 days..." it's been 113 days since she last cut herself. she felt so alone and lost, wishing for someone to listen to her to hug her tightly but there was no one...

her heart was aching. the house she lives in that is supposed to be called home didn't feel like home at all...

40 minutes passed, she had put the blade away in her drawer ' not today' she thought to herself, getting inside her bed she hated everything she felt now. hoping to fall asleep soon and wishing tomorrow would be better, another day passed where she didn't give in to her thoughts. she was scared one day she won't be able to fight back... she hoped this day would never come.

Selenophile
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