|Emotionally Tired|

Chapter 1: Emotionally tired.

  I woke up yet again. I wasn't ready to awaken yet. I was tired, I had been getting my right amount of sleep lately.

I'm just really confused. I don't understand why I always feel so tired, or why I always feel like I need a break from everything.

From everyone.

No matter what it is I still have to get up. I sit up slowly and change my LED Lights off of red and to white so I could see better. I grab my phone and check the time.

"Shit."

I curse under my breath realizing that i'm late for class. I mean, of course it's virtually but still.

I quickly go to the bathroom and brush my teeth, fixing my hair and washing my face.

I looked in the mirror slowly. Not wanted to see the person who stood on the other side. I didn't want to stare back at someone who couldn't do anything right anymore. I didn't want to see myself anymore.

I sigh and leave the bathroom shutting off the light and going back into my room grabbing a hoodie and putting it over my head.

After I finished struggling to put my hoodie on I grabbed my Chromebook and sat on my bed opening it and signing in.

My screen opens up into it's home page. Showing me all of my school apps that have been pre-downloaded.

I clicked on google classroom and went to my first hour. ELA. Reading and writing arent bad at all. In fact i really like it.

As long as I get to read and write about something I like. Otherwise I think its pretty pointless.

I dont like the teacher. She put a lot of stress on all of her students. She lies to get her way and gets into her students business just to put her opinion in it. As if anyone had asked.

I hesitantly clicked the zoom link and waited for her to let me in the zoom.

"Goodmorning JaVeyah, glad to see you today." Ms. Ryan says with a smile.

I unmuted and said goodmorning back and went back on mute.

"We are going to start todays zoom off with morning circle. Today's prompt is:
   What are emotions and how can they effect a human? Would anyone like to start?"

My teacher asked. I stayed quiet I really dont like starting. My stomach starts hurting and I sweat way more than I should.

"Ill start today." My friend Rei says.

Rei is my bisexual friend. Ive seen how others treat him and hes knows how others treat me because of our sexuality.
I talk to him whenever I see him. He's mixed with Black and Asian. Korean to be specific, maybe 5,6 and he usually has his hair just however he wakes up in the morning. So. Everywhere.

"Great. Rei you have to floor." Mrs. Ryan smiles and we all wait for Rei to start.

"Emotions are a hard subject to talk about especially since their are so many of them and they mean different things for everyone. Speaking off of personal experiences, emotions can do a lot to a person.

Make them do crazy things or feel a certain way. Or can make most of yall cry like a little baby. Our thoughts are often what trigger our emotions as well. And memories are also apart of that little family.

Depending on the emotions that how a person would feel and what could happen to them."

I always listen to what Rei had to say, he's too unpredictable. So when he says something it's always pretty interesting. He never really had a filter.

I pretty much ignore everyone else.

"Who knew emotions could be so powerful." My other friend Friar states.
Friar is my Pansexual friend. She always speaks her mind like Rei. They dont hold anything back. She is Japanese. Has straight blonde hair that stops just above her shoulders. She may be 5,3.

"Well DUH. There practically the building blocks for a human being." Rei says back.

"And what about you JaVeyah? How do you feel?" My teacher asked me.

I say and thought about it for a moment.

"Emotionally tired~"