The Forgotten Black || Harry Potter

Chapter 23 || Summer

I have been home for almost a month which might seem short but oh my god it has been the longest month of my life not only was I sneaking out of the house to be a damn death eater and not even a hot one and it was a pain in my ass.

\\Flashback//

I had been watching two death eaters for two week now they had been meeting in the same place all week and one would always come around 5 and take the place of DE number 2 and would stay there until 10 when another DE would come and take his place. This was great because I could easily take this one out since I already knew his schedule.

I waited until the fist DE left for my chance to strike. Before I could do anything, something caught the eye of the DE making him go into the Alley making my job easier. I quickly crossed the road and ran in his direction. I made sure there were no muggles around before taking my wand out as I spotted my target. "Stupefy" I whisper , making the DE instantly fall to the ground. I ran his direction and quickly used the levitating spell on him since I was not planning on carrying him to the dumpster.

I quickly when through his things to see if anything would help me out, nothing alright i took his appearance in every detail how his index finger was cut in half how one eye was brown and the other had a tint of gold. I quickly though of this and felt myself change when i open my eyes i was taller my hand were manlier and I had a Dick...it feels big damn it not the time... I wonder how it feel to pee... shit getting off topic.

I turn around to where he was i quickly use legilimency on the guy to see what his bloody name was and if they had any type of code that I would have to know in the future. Once i got what i needed i use the spell Dumbledore told me to use "Obliviate" i whisper.

I had to wait for the guy to wake up so i could send him away. "Ugh what happen" he said "Oh my are you alright i have been looking for you all day we are going to miss the train you git" i shouted he look at me in wide eyes.

\\End of Flashback//

But yea that was a pain in the ass. Not only was i not getting enough sleep because of this i had been keeping a journal to write everything out so i wouldn't forget anything.

I check the time to see it was time to eat i quickly made ,my way downstairs and took a sit opposite to my father we we're in silence until he broke it "Harry will be arriving next week" he told me not looking up from the newspaper i just sigh.

"Great" i whisper "Look i will only tell you this once Mary you will be nice to him when he gets here got it no being rude" he told me in a stern voice i simply roll my eyes "How about i just dont talk to him at all" i said and gave him a smile "What is it with you being so against Harry he's a great kid" he try to reason with me "Well I don't know DAD probably that Not once all year did i get A BLOODY LEtter from you, DAD not even for my DAMN Birthday" i shouted in anger "I just didn't have time Mary ok i was busy with the order and trying to keep Harry safe" he shouted back.

"There you go talking about Potter and don't give me that bullshit that you didn't have time because we both KNow you damn did with all does BLOODY lEtTeRs you send potter" i scream my blood boil from him thinking that i was that damn stupid not to notice "You notice" he ask surprice "No shit i did and lets not forget all does time your ugly face appear in the fireplace reassuring Potter, and you really think i wouldn't notice how potter always when to that tower and always came back with a letter, BUt me not even one not even for my birthday BUt you know who didnt forget about it uncle Remus" i scream as i stood up "Where do you think you are going" he shouted "To my room KreKre please bring my food to my room" i said before walking off "MAry get back here" he shouted "No" i scream as i slam the door shut.

I sat on my bed. I really don't have the energy to cry right now. 

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I laid in bed i had been trying to get some sleep but i wasn't able to. finally i decided to go the manor i got up and made my way downstair. I made sure Dad wasn't here when i notice he wasn't i grab floo powder and got in the chimney before i said anything i change my appearance into Mad dog i said my destination and felt myself disappear.

Once i open my eyes i was in the living room of the malfoys i look around and saw that no one was here i made my way to the dungeons since most would be down there.

Once i got there i saw the usual people sitting down and playing cards i got closer to see what they were talking about "Ah mad dog what brings you here" ask blondie "My shift was over and didnt feel like going home" i told him as i push his hand off my shoulder "Wanna play" he ask me i nodded no "I'll watch" i told him.

I staid there until we got interrupted "There a meeting" said a female voice i look up to see Daniela she look like crap she had bags under her eyes and her blonde hair was a mess I wanted to run towards her hug her and tell her that it was me and that everything was going to be find but I couldn't risk it for her safety and mine.

I nodded and made my way up to the living room and into the chimney "Leaving already" said someone from behind me " Lestrange" i said "So" she said in that annoying voice "YEs if i was needed in the meting someone would have told me before hand now if you excuse me ill take my leave" i told her before flooing myself out.

0•0

I appear in the restaurant where i usually keep an eye, i made my way outside into the back before changing back into myself. With that i made my way back home i open the door and got greeted my and angry looking sirius "CRap" i whisper "WHERE were you" he ask "Park i got bore and couldn't sleep so i when to the park" i told him as i walk past him.

Before i could take another step he grab my arm I try to free myself but he hardened his grip.

Get OFF ME" I scream

YOU NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP" he scream as he hold me down

I just wanted you to be my dad, A DAd who aCtUaLlY love me, a dAd NOTHING like you " I scream my voice breaking with each word

Do you think I wanted a daughter like you " he said in a cold voice
I never wanted you in the first place" he added looking at me dead in the eyes

"Dad" I spoke tears daring to come out. I don't know what took over me but my free hand flew to his face.

I heard him gasp I look up to see blood coming from his nose "If I could have chosen my father it wouldn't be you" I told told him in the same tone he use before going upstairs.

When I made it to my room I slid down the door and broke down. "DAMN IT" I whisper as I let my tear flow down my cheeks.

I got up and made my way to my closet I open the first drawer and took out a knife. I look at it and remember the pain that it brought me but I enjoy it but I knew it was bad, it was an addiction I couldn't seem to get rid of since the first time I tried it it was kind like of like how Mione says all the time when she is reading "one more page" but she keep reading, it's the same for me I say one more time but I keep doing it.

I stop myself and sigh "Shit" I whisper knowing that if I did it right now I would do it again. With all my will I threw it away and just sat on the cold floor.

After a while I got up and when to sleep.