Isaac.
This was the longest time I had stayed away from Elsie ever since we started dating. We fell in love and became inseparable, I can say it was love at first sight because from the first time I laid my eyes on her I knew she was the one.
How she carried herself, how she talked and expressed herself. Gosh, I found myself falling hard. We would always go on a date every week. Through this we were able to learn each other, I came to know who she really was. What kind of music she liked listening to, that her favorite color was red. Even when we didn't have money we still enjoyed each other's presence, we would go out on walks and have long and passionate conversations about life, love and so much more that happened in our lives and around us. Even when we didn't agree on something our fundamental values would always fall into place.
She was gorgeous, in the way she dressed, talked, did her make up. She was stunning. She was a good woman and when one finds a good woman he finds a good thing. She is everything that I always envisioned and even more - loving, genuine, decent, happy, open, God fearing.
They say you only know your lover when you let her go, that you only what you got until its gone. Suddenly its like my eyes were opened to the sad reality that I had lost her. How she held me down, how she made a better man, how she was there for me in the good and the bad. I had lost a good woman and I wanted to let her know that this journey seemed unreal without her, life without her seemed to be meaningless.
I was longing for a place besides her where I could just lay and listen to heart beat, I longed for a place besides her where I could be myself again.
What then...when the moon summons the sun and the stars fail to shine, when the sky loses its strength to stay up so high and my eyes are fixed upon the falling sky. Will it be then that I will see her again, look in to the glow of her eyes and understand my heaven?
Will it be then that I will retrieve the moments I hid up above and hear the whispers of my silent secrets? Will it be then that I will get to see the sky blanket us warm as we watch the break of a new dawn and understand where the moon goes. Will that be our real goodbye?
Will it be the thought of the touch of her hand and the warmth of your embrace? Will it be the smile on her face when the moon is fading away.
Will it be then that I will realize that all I have is the thought of us?
I couldn't go on living life this way. I decided that I would make things right with her. Hoping that the time we've spent apart was enough to cool her off. Deep down I knew that I was the last person she wanted to hear from. I had not learnt how to love her from afar, I wanted her close and I wanted her affection back.
So I decided that I would reach out to her, if I called her she would probably not pick up the call so decided to text her..I didnt say much, I didnt want to do on phone, I wanted to see her and talk to her face to face so I asked her if I could take her out to talk things out. That's all I wanted. A chance to explain myself to her and ask for her forgiveness.
Later that evening she replied to me. She accepted a meet up. I didnt want to do this in public so I suggested a nice restaurant where we usually went out for our dates and to my surprise. She was cool with the idea. So we agreed to meet the next day at noon.
Until now I had not yet figured out what to tell. I knew what needed to be said but I couldnt find the right words to do. I spent the entire night tossing and turning on my bed wondering how I would react when I see her. Should I hug her or should I shake her hand? Ohhh No, what will she think if I just stretch out my hand for a handshake, but then will she be comfortable with a hug.
