Will you be my girl?

Chapter 6

"What did you say to him then?" Sam was sitting on my bed painting her nails grey. While I was getting ready. I wore some denim shorts and a black shirt. I styled it with a black choker and did some makeup. Today was Saturday and I was getting ready for the soccer match at college. 

Yesterday at night, Ace had messaged me again reminding of the game. And I had nothing else to do, so why not? Moreover.. today I had to spend time with Sam, so I asked her to tag along too.

I had told her about what happened last night. How Alec had asked me out. 

*flashback*

"....Jen, will you be my girlfriend?" he said finally.

"No."

I somehow knew this would be coming. Why was I not surprised. Since some time he's been acting all weird. Getting too close to me, acting all jealous. Get touchy.. He would purposefully be around me all times. 

Was this my fault? Was it me that had gotten this here. I think not. Well I had told him that this just couldn't ever happen and  here we were. He asking me to get into a relationship. Is he mad or what? I don't do that. Why would I want that?

"But why not? Don't you like me?" he asked, now a little loud.

"I do. Just not how you want. I can't do that." I said as a matter of fact.

He took both of my hands in his, pleading.. "Why won't you try at least?  How will you ever know what you want?"

Ok this really wasn't the first time someone had said that to me. And he certainly won't be the last. What was constant was my answer, which was never going to change. I don't want to be with someone, I thought these things were just a waste of time.... Why do relationships when you can... like different people without a regret. 

Not getting fooled by them, by their soft and romantic gestures, get all emotionally riled up only to find them cheating on you. 

Well.. what if, what if  you are the one cheating them? 

I mean I won't say I'd do, but what if I do? Won't the other person be hurt? Won't he get hurt?

I certainly don't want that, and I certainly don't wanna waste my time finding that out. Right now, I just want to focus on the opportunities that comes my way. My dreams, my career. 

And I'm happy this way. Whether I like  Alec or not. It's not that I'm gonna like him forever. What am I, like nineteen. 

For me, freedom is more important. I can't see myself  being tied in some sort of bond. 

I prefer being single. Call me whatever you want, but that's how I am.

"I had told you I don't do relationships, haven't I? "  I  said to Alec, "Let's just enjoy our life as it is. Why do we need a tag?" I grabbed his hands and pulled his close. "Now let's just dance....shall we?"

He sighed , pulled his hands back from mine "Jen, I'll be back. I need some time alone right now.." and he left me at the dance area. Alone.

Whatever... 

I made my way to the drinks. At least that'll keep my company....

*end of flashback*

"He came after an hour or so.. then he brought me home. Might I add we didn't speak a single word after that in the car too... How immature of him." I puckered my lips after I put on the light shade. "BTW.. How does this one look" I asked referring to my lipstick shade.