Scars {G-Idle}

Chapter 3

"Minnie, what's wrong?" Soojin knelt at her side, attempting to wipe the blood off her nose. "Are you alright?"

"Don't touch meeeeee!!" Minnie shrieked, hyperventilating as she cried. "No more!"

"Minmin!" Soyeon pushed Soojin away and hugged her. "I'm here, honey! Tell me what's going on!"

"It hurts!" she wailed, weakly flailing. "Please!"

"Hyejin, what happened?" Shuhua gasped. 

"I can't tell you what we found with her body." Jin shook her head. "It's private."

"Why is she having a meltdown? She's fragile, but she's never had a meltdown like this..."

Minnie pressed her face into Soyeon's chest. "It's too much! Why can't I cut again?"

"Because you can't. Please, tell us what happened. If not all of us..." Soyeon glanced at the rest of the group. "Tell me. I won't tell them, I promise."

"No... you will, I know you will..."

"Never, sweet girl. You can trust me."

"Unnie... why does it hurt so much?" she murmured as Soojin, Shuhua, Miyeon, and Yuqi left.

"Why does what hurt?" She blinked.

"Why do they hate me? Why do they hate me?"

"What?"

"I tried to kill myself for so long... I should have died... everyone will come after me again..."

"Again? Who came after you?" Soyeon gulped. "Who was it?"

"All of them! I should have died when it was destroyed!"

"You mean when the fire burned down the studio? That was an accident and we weren't there yet."

"But I almost was! If Shuhua had been ready, I would have died!! And I should have!"

"Minnie, love..." Soyeon exhaled quietly. "You know we don't want you to die. But can I ask... when did you first begin cutting if it was before we knew?"

"I-I started cutting when we released the music video after Latata... I couldn't deal with it and after Oh My God... I just couldn't take it any longer and I didn't want anyone to find me before I'd died."

"Is that the first time you tried to die?"

"No... it wasn't..."

"Was it after Latata?"

"Yeah... I was getting death threats and one of them... someone told me I deserved to be raped and killed by the m-mafia..."

"What?!" Soyeon's eyes widened. "No... who the hell would do that?"

"I don't know!" Minnie wailed. "It scared me and I... I was looking over my shoulder for so long and I couldn't breathe at one point because I saw someone who l-looked like they wanted to kill me..."

"Is that why you collapsed during the I Made stage?"

She nodded, sniffling. "H-he was gone when I came to... and I... I saw him later..."

"When?"

Minnie's eyes once more filled with tears and she let out a scream. "I saw him when he shot me!"

"Wait, what?" Soyeon recoiled in shock. "Y-you were shot?"

"It h-hit my leg... I took the bullet out myself... and I w-went to the doctor to get it cleaned before I came home after the performance..."

"Minnie, why the hell didn't you tell me? If you were shot, you could have died!" 

"I didn't tell you because you would have made me stay in the dorm and not go anywhere!"

"That's because I care about you!" Soyeon roared. "I want to know why you've been cutting and trying to kill yourself! Being shot does not cause something like that. Were you physically attacked by someone? Were you raped, beaten, abused?"

She was silent and Soyeon could tell she was trying not to cry anymore. 

"Minnie..."

"All of them! Is that what you want to hear?" she squealed, making Soyeon's jaw drop. "Do you want to hear about how I was nearly killed? Do you want to know why I stay in the middle of our group because I'm afraid of our male bodyguards? Do you want to hear how I cut myself over and over because that seemed like the only way to get their... their fluid out of my body... s-so it would be out of me..."

"Oh, no..." Soyeon slowly covered her mouth. "Did you... were you... p-pregnant?"

"Y-yes... I g-got an abortion in secret... b-but they kept hurting me... they kept making me their... their... th-their slut... oh, Soyeon unnie, it hurts!" Minnie dissolved into tears once more.

"You poor thing..." She carefully wrapped her arms around her, rocking her gently. "Do you know who they were?"

"I fear... I f-fear they really were part of a mafia... one that truly hated me... and I didn't want to say anything because they promised they would hurt all of you if I told... first Yuqi, then Soojin, Miyeon, Shuhua, you... and then kill me after I watched you all die..."

"My god..." Soyeon narrowed her eyes. "I promise, Minmin, we will find out who did this. And we will get you through this. But how... how will you keep this from the others? And more importantly..." She gulped. "How will I?"

Minnie stuck her thumb in her mouth, curling up against Soyeon's body. "This is why I want to die... but tell them if you want. I d-don't care..."

Soyeon kissed her forehead sympathetically, stroking her hand through Minnie's hair in a slow rhythm.