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Rejected

srry for taking so long to update. i was having some mental issues. anyways, here we go-

we will now be looking into todorokis past which i'm assuming a lot of you already know about. i won't be doing flashbacks but instead be doing it in a interview type style. it'll be as if you, the interviewer, are asking todoroki questions. he will then answer as he wishes.

please enjoy.

TW Homophobia
TW religious trauma
TW abuse
TW bad parental relationships

Todoroki POV

my past? you want to know about my past..
well that's a long sad story.. but if you insist, i suppose i'll indulge in your desires.

My father never was a nice man. always very strict with high standards. if you didn't meet those standards he'd make sure you'd be punished

i remember once i came home with a A-

he was furious

it was one of the first i had ever seen him that angry. it was the first time he had ever hit me.

i was in preschool then. 4, maybe 5 years old?
i had gotten an A- in "crafts" for using glue as paint. i never was much of an artist i suppose.

it became a frequent thing, me disappointing him and then him hitting me.

my mother on the other hand was sweet, kind, gentle, and always stood up for me.

but that would just result in him beating her as well.

i suppose one day it became too much for her. she.. snapped

how did she snap you ask? well one day she was making tea and on the phone with a friend i assume. i had overheard her conversation and it wasn't very kind

what was the conversation? that's a understandable question..

well it was something along the lines of her saying i just looked so much like 'him'. him being my father of course. she continued with something about her going crazy

then i opened the door slightly and she heard me. i guess she didn't like that i had been eavesdropping. because within the next 5 minutes i was standing there with boiling water over my left eye.

i guess the conversation had gotten a bit..heated.. *laughs*

my apologies, i do find humor is a nice way to uplift the depressing mood.

but anyways, that's how i got my scar. well not from the burn, but from her trying to fix the burn with ice. which left some sort of ice burn type thing. i'm not sure about the technicalities.

my father quickly sent her to a mental hospital and i never saw her again, well until i grew up anyways. my father continued his beatings after she was sent away and didn't stop until around high school. by then i was always meeting his expectations so he never needed to hit me.

i had never really opened up to people so when i finally made a friend in highschool i was ecstatic.

(ik there's a lot of big words so if u need the def just comment and i'll respond)

he was a new student from America so he had no friends just like me. His name was Alec

Me and him were really close
sometimes people thought we were almost too close

I ended up liking him. a lot. but i had never really liked liked anyone before. i had small crushes on people i found attractive but that's it. so i didn't 100% really know what i was feeling. so i talked to my only friend about it

i still remember it like it was yesterday

-todorokis freshmen year-

"cmon shoto we're gonna be late!" Alec was running through the halls giggling and dragging me along.

i just smiled stupidly and followed along.

"hey alec?"

"yea shoto?"

"can we talk after class? it's kinda important"

"of course! meet me at the gates!"

class went as usual and after we met at the gates

"so what did you wanna say?" Alec and me walked along the sidewalk. I always walked him home so i didn't have to see my dad as long.

"i've been feeling weird lately around you.."

"wha?? what did i do wrong!" he looked towards me with a shocked expression

"oh nothing, it's not that type of weird.."

he sighed in relief and we kept walking
"ok so what type of weird is it then?" he looks at me confused

"well my heart is always beating really fast, i can't stop smiling, my face gets all red when i thinks about you, and you're the only thing on my mind all the time" i looked at him "what does this mean? there's no way i like you since you're a guy right?"

he stopped dead in his tracks and looked at me with disgust "hey you're not gay right?"

i wasn't sure why at the time but i was really hurt by that, "oh, i'm not sure, i guess i've never given dating enough thought to figure out my sexuality"

"well you better not cause that's totally a sin, and i can't hang out with someone who's gonna go to hell" he sighs

i wasn't familiar with religion at the time so i suppose i wasn't sure what he had meant. i had just ignored it. from then on out Alec clearly started avoiding me. it wasn't until around a week later i figured out i definitely liked him. so i finally had him cornered during study hall

"Alec i know you're avoiding me" i had trapped him in the corner of the library. since i was at least 2-3 inches taller than him there was no way he was getting by.

"i-i'm not.." he couldn't even keep eye contact with me

"Alec i like you. Not as friends but as boyfriends." i was clearly nervous since i had never confessed to anyone before

"what?" he pushed me off of him and cringed. "i told you i can't hang out with sinners! it's wrong!"

after that alec didn't talk to me again. i figured it was better to leave him alone. during that alone time i did some research on sinning and the christian religion. After that i knew i had lost Alec as a friend forever.

I suppose it was then i realized i was bi-sexual. Though i definitely lean towards men.

But after that occasion i cut myself off from everyone. i didn't do relationships and i definitely didn't do friends. Eventually as i got older i started having casual sex, but that was all. never anything more.

now i'm with some little guy who works for me. and i don't even know if he actually likes me..haha.. *laughs sadly*

But yea that's my past i guess

"thankyou for your time Todoroki"

of course, thankyou for interviewing me.

So i wanted to try something new, hopefully you all like it. well until next time