shut up.

Help

here we will start part two of the book: help

TW RAPE
TW ASSAULT
TW ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP

-2 years ago-

izuku's POV

he's gonna love this. i just know it! i just have to do better, if i do better he won't be so mean.. or violent...

izuku walks into his and his bf's apartment holding a small box in his hand. He quietly closes the door behind him and takes a deep breath

"a-alex..im home..."

"hi baby" he comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist "how was work?"

i smile softly and turn around so im facing him, "it was really good"

"good. hm, what's that?" he looks down at the box

i smile big and hand it to him "it's for you, as a apology for yesterday, I know i overreacted and I shouldn't has pushed your buttons.."

he smiles softly and kisses my forehead, "see, i knew you would understand, you're such a good boy" he takes the box and i just blush, waiting for him to open it

he opens it and inside are two promise rings "see, it's to prove that i trust you! I know that I shouldn't have gotten so upset about you kissing that girl when it obviously meant nothing. I know you love me and I love you. So now everyone else will be able to see too! and now no girls will kiss you so no more fights.." i smile big and look up to him

But what i saw was not a look of happiness or even just a calm expression. No it was pure anger. He harshly throws the box into the living room, hitting and breaking a mirror. I flinch and look down "i-im sorry, i-i thought you would l-like them..."

hr roughly grips my face and yanks it up, "why the fuck would i like those?! you think i want everyone to know that im a fag?!! i mean seriously are you fucking stupid?!"

"im so sorry, i though-" i interrupted by a sharp slap to the cheek. i wince and just look down, i can taste iron in my mouth and i cringe

he must've cut my lip open..

my eyes sting with tears and i sniffle. He immediately pulls me into his arms and starts showering me in apologies, "im so sorry baby, i didn't mean to. You just made me so mad and I wasn't thinking straight. We can return the rings and get something else ok? I'm so so sorry. I love you so much you know that. And i would never hurt you on purpose."

i just stand there silently, tears slipping down my cheeks.

I'm not even surprised at this point. Why does it always end like this... I thought he loved me? So why does he keep hurting me.. I just want him to be happy..why is he never happy..

i pull away from him and sniffle, "i-i think we should break up.."

he yanks me by my wrist and pushes me onto the couch "What?! NO! no fucking way!! you know im sorry baby! i would never hurt you on purpose!"

i just shake my head in response. he pushes me down to where im laying and he starts kissing my neck softly, "stop alex..." he doesn't listen and just continues to to kiss me, slowly starting to turn more into bites.

"im gonna show you how much i love you" he starts sucking harshly on my neck, leaving hickeys. still crying, i just sniffle and let out small whimpers, "please alex i don't want this"

"shhh it's ok baby, i'm gonna make you feel good ok" i push on his chest, trying to get him off of me. "alex stop!" but he doesn't listen. instead he just grabs my wrists and pins me down "stop struggling, i know you want this. You can keep saying no but your body says otherwise" he pushes his knee on my hard on and i moan at the small touch