"Unexpected love"

(🌸) 11 - Begin Of Yeonbin

It was 11:00 p.m. I lay restless in my bed. Not because I had to go back to school tomorrow and because I wanted to know Yona's reaction. But also that I had to answer Yeonjun who apparently likes me.
I like him back, I really do, but the fact that this is my first love, especially with a boy, gives me a scared feeling.

I don't know why, but when he kisses me I feel a strong feeling coming up. I don't know how to describe it. But it gives me confidence and a feeling that I am not alone.

My fear now is mainly with my mother's reaction. I still have a kind of argument and didn't really talk to her. When I tell her this she probably would freak out. I don't want to do something like that to my mom. I love her and I really do want to tell her but I think she would be kind of disappointed in me. Well, that's my biggest fear that she would be disappointed...

Before the argument, she always talked about having grandchildren and that kind of shit. When I come with a guy... She would be really sad I think.

Suddenly my phone rang. I slowly came up and looked at the time. 1:30 a.m. Shit, I've been grumbling for so long. And who calls in the middle of the night? I did my lights on and grabbed my phone. I was lucky that my mom had the night shift. So she couldn't hear me and I couldn't disturb her either.

I looked at my phone and saw that Yeonjun was calling me. What the f*ck is wrong with this guy. Why did he have to call me this late? Suddenly I realized why he could call me. He would probably ask me my answer.

No, that must be really weird. But somehow the call made me feel scared. I don't know why. I was probably just scared that he was calling me for that. I decided to not answer the call. I sighed and did the lights off. I lay down again and closed my eyes.

2 minutes later the doorbell rang. I got up in shock. What the hell was going on here?! It is f*cking 2 a.m and there is someone at my door! My heartbeat was beating faster and faster. Jesus, it felt like it could pop out of my chest. I stood up and walked through the window. I looked outside and saw Yeonjun standing there.

What is he doing here?! Then he looked up and saw me standing in front of the window. No shit, now he knows I'm home. But how did he even know where I lived?

He was still looking at me, waiting for me to open the door. It was cold and I couldn't let him stand there. Plus, I was kinda curious what he was doing here, shit.. so I decided to walk downstairs to the door and slowly opened it.

"What the f*ck are you doing here, are you insane?!"
I was asking half screaming. He looked at me and didn't say anything. I was waiting for an answer but he stayed quiet.
"Are you gonna answer my question?"
I asked slowly. He sighed.

"Am I bothering you?"
Yeonjun asked me. I saw on his face that he wasn't feeling well. I somehow felt sorry and guilty. We both looked at each other.
"Well... You at my door at midnight so-"
"I'm sorry, I'm already going, cya tomorrow.."
Yeonjun turned and wanted to walk away. I grabbed his arm and stopped him.

"Wait.."
He looked at me. I sighed.
"A-Are you okay?"
I asked. Yeonjun looked at the arm that I was still holding.
"Can I sleep here tonight?"
He asked me and looked at me.

I was kinda in shock about that question, I didn't really know what to say. But when I saw the look on his face, I better agreed with it. There was probably something wrong with him.

"Yeah sure, but why? Is something wrong?"
I asked. It was quiet again. Yeonjun slowly looked at the ground.
"I actually don't want to talk about it. Can we just go inside?"
He looked my way, I nodded and let him inside.

Yeonjun followed me to the living room and he sat on the sofa.
"How did you know where I lived?"
I asked.
"When I was taking a walk I walked past your house and I saw you sitting on the sofa."
He said. Okay? I thought. He stood up and walked towards me.

"Where can I sleep tonight?"
He asked and looked at me.

I was thinking and wanted to say on the couch. But that would be weird when my mom comes home and see him. I don't want her to see him. I barely didn't have a choice to let him sleep in my room in.... my bed... Damn, I don't want that, I can just put some blankets and pillows on the floor. Then he could sleep on that.

"You can sleep in my room on the floor."
He looked straight into my eyes.
"Why can't I sleep in your bed?"
He asked right away.
"Fine, then I'll sleep on the floor."
I said. I actually didn't want to, but it is better this way, I don't want things to happen tonight.

"Okay... Well, let's go to bed. We have school tomorrow."
I nodded and walked towards the stairs. Yeonjun walked behind me. When we walked into the room, Yeonjun looked straight to my bed.
"Why don't we sleep together, the bed is big enough for both of us."
Yeonjun said and walked to it. He sat on the bed and looked at me.

"No, it's fine, I'm going to sleep on the floor."
Yeonjun stood up and grabbed my hand.
"What are you-"
Before I could finish my sentence, he pulled me to the bed. I fell on it and landed on my back, Yeonjun placed his hand next to my head so I couldn't get up.

"You don't need to worry Soobin. It is just a bed. We can sleep both on it."
He said and he slowly came closer to my head.
"Or we can just..."
I turned my head.

He was so close. He wanted to... He is going to... Shit... The problem is that I can't do something because I weirdly liked it. Well, it is not weird because I actually like him but... I don't know if I'm ready... Ready to find out what love is about. I'm scared, I don't know what to do. So I just...