- whats love?- (Shigadabi)

part 2 of chapter 7

Dabi's POV~

i ran non-stop. to where? no clue. just letting my feet mindlessly run to wherever they want. that was until, i made it to the roof of a very familiar place...my old home... not my old man's house, ive never considered that a home. but instead i made it to the roof of a sweet family, they used to offer me warmth, love, and food. but i would always refuse. was it because i wasn't hungry? no i was always starving. it was because they had already done so much for me, that i felt as if i couldn't ask for anything more.

i stayed there for hours, it was peaceful. a place where i can cry without anyone judging me, nor laughing at how 'the son of endeavor was such a weakling'. i felt at peace, until my phone started ringing.

Incoming call from: Tomura ❤️

shit... i took a deep breath and answered "yes?" i can hear him shutting a door "where are you?!" shit he sounds pissed "somewhere" i can hear him scratching his neck all the way from the phone. 

scratch. scratch. scratch. 

 "look its already 10 pm! i-.... just come back already!" and with that he hanged up. fuck...

i scrolled around my phone, ignoring the 34 messages i had from hawks. after 5 minutes, i hopped from the roof onto the pipe along the wall then down. and made my way back to the base. while walking there i got a call.

incoming call from: bunny 🐰

i thought about whether i should answer or not. i decided its best  not to.

15 minutes later~

i arrived to the base, and the moment i come in i have crazy all over my arm "haiii dabs!" i tried to shake her off "toga get off me" she giggled "nope! so how was the special place?" fuck.. "toga. off. now. i wanna be left alone" she obeyed, surprisingly. once she was off i left to my room, and closed the door once inside. i walked to my bed and sat down.

incoming call from: bunny 🐰

.... you've gotta be kidding me. i answered and practically yelled into the phone "what!" i could hear some background sobbing "where the fuck are you?! you left keigo all alone, and now he's fucking wasted touya! and wont stop blabbering about how he lost you and he did something to piss you off!" im in no right mindset for this shit right now "okay?! and just how exactly is that my problem?! are we still little kids?! im sick of playing games rumi, just because of that one little thing that happened doesn't mean that he is my responsibility! may i remind you that we ALL were the 3 best friends, that you have some part in taking care of him when he gets wasted as well! im the only one who's there for his ass, while your hopping around following that shit of a fathers ass!" without realizing i was yelling, and was up from my bed pacing around non-stop.

"i get it touya! but may i remind you that he was with you in everything! he never once left you, even when you nearly burned his feathers off! he was the one who hugged you when you were down and b r o k e n  he was there for you through everything! even when you hurt him like hell. even when you were falsely accused, when you had NO ONE. he was there!" i was now steaming "well, thats his problem! he should have never been there for me. i fucking warned him, that all i do is disappoint, and fuck up peoples lives i fucking warned him that all i do is bring pain, and that by following me, he was going to drown in his own tears! i warned him rumi!"

"wait no touya your not any of tho-" i hung up. i couldn't take it. im not strong enough.

i threw my phone, and just broke down. it hurt. it. fucking. hurt.

i felt as if i was letting everything i had been  building up leave. all the pain. all those feelings of regret.

Everything.