- whats love?- (Shigadabi)

chapter 8

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Dabis POV:

i finally saw the bathroom door open, and out came a damp hawks with a hoodie on and joggers. "hey dabi.." i hummed "i know you don't feel the same way, but i really have to say this..All I want is to be the reason you see the need to give a guy an opportunity to prove how much he feels for you. Thoughts about you light up my outlook and make me feel so happy. I be smiling every time I am texting you. All I want is to call you mine. and as cheesy as it sounds I'm always depressed staying alone without seeing your face which is why i always spam you. The only thing that makes me smile is the thought that I will get to see you again. now i know you don't feel the same way, but i truly love you, and not just as best friends, but as a lover."

i was speechless, honestly i didn't expect that. although he said all that in a horrible state, and his words were slobbery. i still could understand him. i looked at him up and down, he looked like a tomato. "i...uh... w-why don't you go ahead and sleep keigo." he looked at me with a pity expression, then came to the bed where i was sitting "can you at least say something??"

fuck... what do i do?!

end of Recap~ 

Hawk's POV: 

i saw dabi get up from the bed, the moment i sat down. did i make him uncomfortable?! i-i didn't mean to! " touya im sor-"   "look keigo.." i saw him stare me down  as i looked up to him." im sorry, i really am. but...im with someone. and i understand th-"  i blocked out the rest... i didn't wanna hear it. " touya." i saw him look at me wide eyed...guess that came out in more of a harsh tone then i wanted.." what do u mean ur 'with someone'  what happened to those flings, hook-ups, and all those one night stands?! u told me that u would never date someone, because u would get bored of the same crap! how is this person different then all those men, and women that you've fuck?! how is this 'someone' better then me?! please tell me!" 

"keigo, this person, is way different!  all those thirsty little sluts, just cared about the sex. this special someone is so special that  I thank God every night since I found him! he came into my life when everything seemed so dark but he provided the light to find my way. I've never been so certain of anything in my life like I am of us.he has totally changed my outlook in life and I never thought that someone could love me like he does, but guess what? I love him that much too. I feel as if I'm walking over clouds just thinking about him. he makes my life complete. I love him so fucking much and I know he loves me too. I love him. I would do anything for him! and im sorry if it hurts to hear this but im not 15 year old touya anymore! please get that threw your head keigo! understand that 1. were not teenagers anymore! 2. im a villian and your a pro hero! 3. i no longer love you!"     

'i no longer love you...' that hurt like hell... everyone of those words felt like im getting stabbed in the heart "just (*sighs*) go to bed keigo"  i kept my eyes down on the floor, until i heard the door close. the moment it closed, it let it out, all the tears i was holding in, just coming out like a river that doesn't stop. i layed down, and grabbed the stuffed animal touya had won me at the carnival a few months ago.  i ended up crying into it, non-stop  until it went black.

  [-Dabi's POV-]

"just (*sighs*) go to bed keigo" with that i left the room. after i closed the door, instead of leaving; i stayed, my ear on the door as i heard keigo cry, weep, and sob. did it hurt? yeah. could i do anything? no, im dating someone. and it just so happens i love that certain someone. after 5 minutes, i went downstairs; bunny was asleep on the couch so i crept into the kitchen and wrote a note for the both, one left on the kitchen counter for bunny; the other i slipped it undernath the door where keigo was sleeping. afterwards i left, back home.