✨10,000 Little Love Letters✨ ~soulmate amaguji~

~a confession, kind of~

! korekiyo POV !

"rantaro, please --"

the boy was already far from me, dashing past and shoving people away in the halls. no matter how hard i reached out to him, yearned for him, the crowd of people between us made a barrier. i felt small... gross... everyone bumping into me and touching me. every small shoulder bump or hand graze causing me to jump and jolt.

i'm sorry. i love you too.

i wanted so badly to reach out for his hand, to swirl the boy back around until he faced me. to mutter those words and to kiss him gently. i'm sorry. i love you too. i'm still wearing his jacket, the print on the back reading "amami" still. as if i'm his. amami's.

as if this jacket was a romantic gesture. the small way to tell everyone that i'm his, and only his. that he loves me, and i love him too. if he loved me, the scent would stay forever. cuddles from behind as i wear his jacket like a medal, his soft embrace enveloping me whole and making the jacket feel like home.

amami's.

however, the scent dies out, no longer being amami's jacket. rather what remains of him. it makes me feel small... all meaning and joy leaving the soft fabric.

i love you...

i love you, i love you, i love you!!

i don't want to be hers, and only hers. i want to be yours.

i want to feel the love in your touch. i don't want the feather-light, revolting touches i'm used to. the ones that make me want to cry and scream until i can't anymore. those cold, harsh hands that make me feel disgusting. i want the feeling of your warm hands interlocked in mine, gentle kisses, and kind smiles.

i start running as fast as i possibly can, with no real destination in sight. people cringe and murmur as i bump into them, their harsh words becoming nothing but white noise.

"these are kind of like love letters, actually! isn't that so romantic?"

my head feels fuzzy and full, my footsteps growing loud and heavy as i continue to run, run, run...

"not that i'd quite know anything about romance... but i'd say that these are really sweet!"

i finally free myself from the crowd, gasping for air as i reach a door in the hallway. i run my fingers against the door before shoving against it firmly and forcefully swinging it open.

"that might just be me... who knows. maybe i'll surprise you with a romantic letter one day!"

that day had never arrived. i took for granted what i once had and now want it back desperately.

i run up the pair of stairs at the end of the door, panting and out of breath. i want fresh air. to breathe freely and let go.

"xoxo, soulmate."

pushing open the door as hard as i can, i stumble forward, trying to catch myself. i stand on the roof of the school building, gazing over the scene beneath me. the faint noise of trees swaying, people conversing and enjoying themselves.

and then i meet someone's eyes.

the oh so familiar eyes in front of me, soft and emerald green. he sits down against one of the walls, breathing heavily as his eyelids flutter against his freckled cheeks.

"...rantaro?"

"i'm sorry..."

i crouch down to meet his eyes; they looked watery and rosy. his nose was a light red, apparent that he had been crying. he looked upset and helpless... and before i knew it, i held him steady in an embrace, hushing softly.

"...kore...kiyo...?"

"i'm sorry..."

i take a deep breath, embedding my face deeper into rantaro's shoulder.

"i love you too. i want to be yours. yours, yours, and only yours..."

they finally did it you guys !! maybe even a kiss if stell is feeling generous 'o'

anyways the sad times isn't quite over,,, just on pause